Friday Afternoon = Drunk Stripper

I haven't had anything to eat except for a granola bar and then made the mistake of drinking in the afternoon with nothing in my belly.

I = kind of drunk.

I went out to the shop today. I picked up some beer and coolers on my way so that I could at least hang out with the guys and bullshit for awhile. My boss's girlfriend/wife also came out which was really nice.

I told them about my new job. They were all very understanding. I would still like to go back to the shop one day, I'm going to miss them all a lot... but we'll see what happens.

Dave told me with my blonde hair I should be a stripper.

His words were "You look so hot you should be a stripper"

I said no because if I was he would always be up front in gyno-row. hahahaha.

It sounds pervy to all of you but when you work with it you get used to it and it becomes gentle humour.

It was strange. Although very nice to see everyone. We'll see what happens. I won't lie -- I'm going to miss everyone and if I can I would like to finish my apprenticeship.

One of the guys told me that I "looked happy" which apparently I didn't look while I was working there. I suppose that is nice to hear. They are all very excited about me getting married and will of course still be invited to our wedding.

Fuck I should have eaten something today. I'm quite drunk for drinking so little.

Trout Lake Wander

The baby ducks are out. They're so cute.

They can walk on the lily pads without sinking, it's so friggen cute!!

The off leash side at Trout Lake. I am way too obsessed with dogs.
I particularly loved this guys dog, he was so huge and friendly! I wanted to steal him.

Just testin' out the water...

Lake Couple:

It may just happen!

I guess there's been so much happening that I'm still not entirely caught up. I will blog about my moms visit soon. I will push her to send me some pictures if she can.

I did want to make a very cool pre-announcement.

At this point it's still just speculation but there is a possibility that my older brother Kyler and his girlfriend Maggie may end up moving to my general region of living!

There is a job coming about in Maple Ridge that my brother is going to apply for once posted. Due to some connections and good references they already want to hire him but to be "fair" and "union" they have to publicly post the position still.

I don't want to get my hopes up incase for some obscure reason he doesn't end up getting the job, but given the chances it's probably going to happen.

I'm not entirely sure when he would be moving here should this all happen, all I know is that the job would be an incredible opportunity and he will take it if he gets it.

That being said -- how awesome would it be to FINALLY have some family down here with me?

Just think, one day when Dario and I have babies our children can go visit their uncle Kyler all the time!! And that works either way should him and Maggie ever make some little asian half breeds!

It would just be cool to have my big brother around. Even Dario said he would like it if he was down here. They get along amazingly well and I'm sure they'd be out watching UFC and shooting squirrels and other useless shit as often as they could be!

When/If this all goes through I will be sure to post something about it!

Poopy Pants

Well it's been good news all around lately. Things have started to get sorted out. My new roommate has signed papers and paid the damage deposit. She came out for dinner with my mom, Dario and myself and it was a good time.

I have a job lined up now so I'll talk to them to find out a start date.

My EI is up, they need a doctors note to get one more week of pay out of them but I don't even feel like bothering with the hassle of it. You have to pay for a doctors note and then half the time it doesn't work anyways.

I went to the doctors today to discuss this birth control. I told her I was gaining weight and she said she was surprised as this pill usually doesn't do that. Either way she wants to go through with the surgery. She looked more into my last few reports and my family background and decided it best to do the surgery to know exactly what's happening.

Until them I'm not on anymore birth controls or medications. During the surgery she's going to insert an IUD though. A low dose progesterone IUD called Mirena. It's a bit of a pain in the ass for the first few months apparently but after that it's in there for up to 5 years. What's nice about it is you aren't altering your body's natural hormones. Everything stays the same, it just releases a small amount of progesterone-like hormone into your uterus and causes the lining not to thicken. If you use it for contraceptive purposes it makes it an unsuitable environment for pregnancy to occur, and for endometriosis purposes it decreases the endometrium growth therefor decreasing the growth of any of the same tissues outside of the uterus (endometriosis) and apparently decreases pain and bleeding. In 30% of cases it stops bleeding all together after about a year or two of being in there.

So the major stresses are taken care of. I'm slightly nervous about the surgery already but I know it will be fine and will do me a world of good afterwards.

I'm going to go remove my contacts now. I'm getting some sort of head cold or something and the pressure in my sinus's is driving me insane. I woke up with a migraine and took some extra strength advil. It didn't help much at first but the headache wore off. Now I've taken some dayquil and the headache is back and so far the cold is still disgusting feeling.

I hate being sick :(

Job Update

Well it's come time to make the decisions.

I'm taking a new job. The one I had an interview with yesterday. The pay isn't the greatest but it's full time, set hours Monday through Friday, and it's close to home. At least with the hours being the way they are then if I need to find some work for the evenings then I can do that. Plus I'll be dressed appropriately so I can just leave one job to go to the next (or to school in November even.)

I still haven't told the company I'm going to take it yet. I just received an e-mail from them this morning and they told me I am their preferred choice and are waiting on a 'yea' or 'nay' so they can tell the runner ups what they need to.

It's kind of scary, it's a toooootally different atmosphere and I've never worked in a place like this. It's quiet and professional. Everyone is dressed nicely in their skirts or dress pants so that will be a huge change for me. But I like the hours (8:30 to 4:30) -- they're not too early and not too late. It's perfect.

I'm always afraid of making a total ass out of myself when it comes to new jobs. You don't know where anything is or how to do anything but I just have to remind myself that it doesn't matter WHERE you start working that is going to happen. It'll take a week or two to adjust and it should be fine.

It's kind of exciting, but I think I'm more nervous than anything.

It's Business... It's Business Time

These are my favourite hair products to date and I use all 5 of those when I style my hair. A lot of people ask me what they should use, what I use etc etc and truth be told it's different for each person. But I will vouch for these products as they're all awesome.

The Redken Extreme anti-snap (blue bottle) is a leave in treatment for distressed hair. It's got lipids and proteins in it so it helps build up the strength of your hair again and helps reduce breakage. I'm still new to this product -- I was using the CHI straight guard product before this but I'm liking this one better.

I towel dry my hair and put some of the anti-snap in and then after that I use the Redken Color Extend. There's two ways of using it, you can use it in the shower after you shampoo. Leave it in for 2 minutes then rinse it out, or you can spray in towel dried hair and leave it in for better protection. This product is awesome for anyone with coloured hair but I would even recommend it for people who don't have coloured hair. It has a UV filter in it and what most people don't think of or know is that the sun is just as damaging to your hair as it is to your skin. Whenever you're out in the sun all day you're completely distressing your hair if you don't use the proper protection. This stuff is awesome and if you don't want to spend the money on it you can always use a spray sunblock -- however this stuff doesn't leave your hair all greasy.

After I blowdry my hair I put in the CHI silk infusion (small grey bottle.) You can put it in before you blowdry but I prefer to put it in after. It's just a smoothing serum. They call it a "reconstructing complex" but basically if your hair is kind of dry it just gives it that soft smooth feel to it. I love it, I use it almost every day. It's awesome to use before you straighten your hair, it almost acts as an iron guard.

The CHI shine infusion is just a shine spray. For brunettes you might not need it so much but I find that blonde hair doesn't shine the way dark hair does so I like to use it to make my hair a little shinier and healthier looking. It's an aerosol and you defs don't need much of it.

The last stuff OSIS+ Dust it by Schwarzkopf -- best shit ever. If you ever back comb your crown for a bit of volume or whatever this shit is ten times better than that and doesn't break your hair like back combing does. I just got started on this product too but it's amazing stuff.

Lately I've been buying cheaper shampoos (because really I am so damn cheap sometimes and hate forking out the money even though it's totally worth it.) I do however try to find the better shampoos and conditioners if I can. I just got some new stuff today the "Root Awakening" by John Frieda. I have no idea how well it will work personally I just bought it for the smell. I'm a total whore for mint/eucalyptus/lemon grass scented products. This stuff smells so good.

If I were to request any shampoo I personally love the Joico Silk Result for thick/course hair. It is awesome stuff. It's actually not TOO expensive and you can find it in places like london drugs now but it's def my all time fave shampoo and conditioner.

I like to switch up the shampoos and stuff though. Just like body washes and soaps it's not good to stick to the same one all the time or it can start to build up and thrash your hair.



I have three different hairsprays -- I use one for myself (a light hold) and the other two are for updo's. I use a basic sunsilk curl enhancing cream and it does the trick. I have two iron guard sprays -- the Matrix Vavoom Gold Heat stuff I really like to use when I straighten my hair. I don't like the other one I have (CHI iron guard) because it seems to leave your hair kind of sticky feeling.

I don't know. Aside from that I really don't use anything else. Definitely the 5 products I use I recommend that everyone has in their collection of hair stuff. The only one you could knock off if you're not into volume and hold is the "Dust It."

Shinanigans Recap

I have some time finally!

It has been an incredibly busy week. My mom is out for lunch right now with some people from their lumber supplier. Because the company my mom works for went bankrupt and a new company bought them out, she has all new people to meet. A co-worker of hers is here right now meeting with this company as well so they're all getting together for food.

That basically means I have a few free hours to myself.

My mom leaves Vancouver tonight at 6:10pm. I'll drop her off around 5ish. It's been so hectic and crazy all week that as much as I love my mom I'm looking forward to having my bed back to myself and time to relax and cook again!

We have eaten out every day this week (except for breakfasts - those we do at home) and the one time we did eat at home I ordered pizza. There has been no time for cooking.

Wedding dress shopping was a bunch of different experiences. It was fun but stressful. The dresses are all beautiful and it's hard to find the perfect one but I did manage to find it! We got an awesome deal on it and I'm very happy with the final choice. I tried on about 75 dresses at least I figure. In total we went to about 7 different bridal shops. In the end though it was totally worth it. The dress I picked is absolutely stunning, is totally unexpected, and I will admit -- a little over the top. But whatever, I can have a slightly over the top wedding dress since it wasn't an over the top cost. It was an awesome deal, I lucked out big time and I'm more than happy with my choice.

I AM DONE! with wedding dress shopping though WHOO. When we come home every night my mom still goes through all my wedding magazines and picks out ones she likes. I honestly don't even want to look at any of them anymore because I'm so sick of it. I told her to quit looking since we found the one we needed to and dresses don't matter anymore.

Anyways -- so... the bridal party colour scheme has changed yet again. Instead of the girls wearing either coral, yellow or green, (or all three) they're now going to wear a silvery/cement grey.

Danielle I'm sure is pleased cause she's a total grey-whore! haha. But no seriously we even found cute cute dresses for the girls to wear that looked amazing on both Danielle and Alicia. The colour works well with everything and so now we'll just do some yellow flowers with the grey dresses. IT'S FOOL PROOF! So now to try to find them somewhere at a better price or I'm going to look into having them made if it's cheaper. I'm sure I'll have a much easier time finding grey dresses than yellow, coral or green dresses!

Today I had a job interview. It went very well and the job would be perfect. It is literally a 5 minute drive away which would be so awesome. I will know by Wednesday if I get the job. If I am offered it I will take it for sure. I would do all the filing for a major real estate management company. There's plenty of room to grow, the pay starts off decently. It's monday to friday and there's benefits after 3 months. Stats are paid as well as if the stat is on a thursday they typically take both thursday and friday off to give you an extra long weekend AND pay you for it. So it sounds like a decent deal to me.

I had two other responses as well that I'm following up on right now (now that I finally have some time.) Since we've hardly even been at home or in a quiet place I haven't been able to sit down and call these people back so hopefully I haven't lost out on the opportunitys but I guess I'll see what happens.

One is for a receptionist position for an optometry clinic, and the other is for another receptionist job I BELIEVE for a tool company. (I still can't quite remember but I'll find out more when I talk to the guy again.)

PS wanna see me look like a whore? HAH. Here you go:


My friend Ashley is in makeup school right now and needed a model for her final exam. I agreed to it and this was her "smokey eye" final. Pretty but WAY too much for me. I felt like one of those slutty bar chicks that are plastered to the nines.

Not a fan of that lip colour either. I like more peachy tones and no lip liners - yugh on the lip liners!

Well I don't know what else to say. I haven't taken any pictures. My mom did so when she posts some I'll steal them off of her.

I have never shopped so much in my life. Literally all day every day -- and we probably will go again this afternoon before we drop her at the airport.

I did manage to find some amazingly cute tops at Old Navy (who woulda ever thunk it?? I hate that place normally) and one at the gap. I got some awesome deals so I suppose the shopping was worth it. I even found a cutesy plain green summer cotton spaghetti strap dress for like 15 bucks. I don't know when I'm going to wear it but it's a good beach dress I think.

PS my nose is mad stuffy/runny today -- allergies maybe? I was in a garden full of blooming flowers yesterday.

One more Year

The wedding is officially one year away!

My mom and I have an appointment today to buy "the dress."

Totally unexpected dress I will tell you that!

It's begun...

Day one of dress shopping went really well. It was an extremely busy day but all in all a good one. I found all the little things I want to find in a dress and today we'll be going to a few more shops.

I won't be blogging for the next week basically but I suppose I'll have stories when I come back!

Snow is For Hosers

I would like to mention that it is May 19th and it is snowing in the Fort St James/Vanderhoof/Prince George regions (and many more) ...

These pictures were taken in Vanderhoof.

All I have to say is:

HAHA SUCCKKAAAASSS

Things to do and people to see

I'm taking a time out from my 'starting off not so good' day.

My mom comes into town tonight at 9pm so I'm trying to tidy up the house a bit. I did laundry till about midnight last night and today I didn't have anything left except for bedding which is almost done.

I just broke my computer desk which was kind of amusing. I went to sit down and my foot was on the bottom shelf and I put wayyyy too much pressure on it and kind of got stuck and couldn't move my foot off the shelf before my body started to sit. Yes I am that stupid sometimes. But actually it looks like it will be more convenient without that shelf there. Now it's just carpet so it's kind of nice.



I'm a pasta eating machine right now. I've been eating pasta for like 3 frickin days. I'm almost sick of it now. I made dinner the other night and had tons of sauce so I've been using it up for once.

I drove Krystal to the airport last night around 9:30. She's in Toronto for the week. Hence why I am cleaning today and not any earlier. This way no messes are made before my mom gets here.

She sounds really excited and so am I. I've worried a bit that it will be a bit stressful while she's here but I don't think it will be. In fact I think it's what I need right now - a family visit. It will be nice for both of us because there's no back and forth between family's and trying to manage seeing everyone an equal amount. This way it's just her and me, and we'll get plenty of good visiting in!

The new hair colour... not much diff. from the old one!

Tomorrow is the first dress appointment. We probably won't do too much of shopping tomorrow cause there's lots going on. My friend Ashley from Fort now lives here and is doing a makeup program. She needed a model for tomorrow so I agreed I would go. So at 2 I have to meet her and then at 7 the other Ashley (new roommate) is coming over to meet the landlords and pay the damage deposit. After that though it will be shopping madness!

My mom leaves on Monday so hopefully in that time we will find something.

I'm so scatter brained today. I've got lots to do but really not that much? I'm trying to figure out this situation with a dress store and work it out between Danielle's, Alicia's, and mine and my moms schedules. I should have been paying more attention to this earlier but I just saw what the stores hours were and I'm kind of blown away. It closes at 5pm on a friday night... like what is that about?

On top of the cleaning and scheduling, I'm trying to figure out this EI situation and trying to apply for some jobs. However my computer doesn't want to open certain programs and it's driving me insane. I think this things lifetime is just about up, I should take it in to get reformatted in the next few weeks before it crashes and I lose all my shit.

All I have to do today is vacuum, sweep, and mop... wipe down the counters and sinks, clean the bathroom. My room is already clean so all it needs is the sheets back on the bed and my laundry put away... and I suppose now that I just smashed the crap out of this computer desk I need to put some shit back there. Nothing too major. It will take about an hour or two to do everything so not so bad. Then I'll have a shower and try to get back to this job search business. I have plenty to do about that situation.


Last night I was watching the season finale of "Paranormal State" ... it's some ghost show I watch because I'm lame like that and can't watch anything that is actually scary. This show scares me cause I'm a baby so it's about all I can handle.

Anyways... there was this guy on there that said he was being attacked by something that looked like a wolf figure. It would claw him and what not yadda yadda so he called in the paranormal state team to figure out what was going on. Eventually they decide to bring in a sketch artist to draw out what this guy describes. So he starts explaining this "dark force/animal" that he's seeing and the guy's drawing away and when he finishes I burst out laughing.

No jokes. It was manbearpig.


I couldn't help but laugh. That show is so ridiculous. I find it quite entertaining sometimes.

I haven't blogged about the weekend. I won't go into detail cause it's a little too late. So I'll brief it. Friday night Dario, Pat, Mark, and I played some jackpot and volleyball, threw a football around while having a few drinks in the park by Dario's place. Saturday we all got together for the first barbecue of the year, missing of course the Ciavarro family. We won't call it the "first official barbecue" until it includes the Ciavarro's since it is tradition!

Sunday was a really lazy day. We had church, then I went and bought a couple pairs of shorts and a couple tanktops and some damn sunglasses finally, then Dario and I headed over to Deer lake to sit in the sun for about an hour. It was quite hot out and I loved every minute of it. I even got a little bit of a sunburn W00T.

Yesterday was a decent day. It started to rain a bit but Dario and I drove around for awhile figuring maybe we'd find a backroad to go down but instead ended up at Cleveland Dam. Neither of us had been there and it turned out to be an awesome place. We weren't prepared for any sort of hiking so we want to go back when we are and do more of a tour. There were guys fishing in the river and what not, it was really cool. Nice easier hike for us girly pants. Although there is no denying that even a gentle slope gets me breathing heavier than a frickin banshee. That episode of the simpsons where Homer accidently ends up at fat camp and the guy says no one ever escapes because the only way out is a gentle uphill slope... yeah, I'm the fat kid that can't get out.

I didn't bring my camera but Dario took some pictures so you can check some of those out.

Now I'm going to go finish all the crap I have left to do!

Progestin Is The Devil

I have gained basically 10 pounds in the last two months.

At first when I started noticing a pound or two I figured it's because I'm not working so I'm not burning those calories that I used to. Then I figured it's probably because I'm not eating properly.

Then I noticed changes in my diet. I've been really pushing myself to eat a lot more veggies and I've been doing quite well with it. But my appetite started to change and I am hungry all the friggen time. I always want to eat.

Then I noticed that I wanted to eat things all the time, that I normally wouldn't eat much of. I enjoy icecream and chocolate don't get me wrong, but I very rarely crave them. Now all of a sudden all I want to eat is junk food. Chips, candy, icecream, chocolate, pop, it's all I want to eat.

Now... the last time I was off work I was off for longer than I have been this time. I was eating MUCH worse then, and I wasn't any more active then than I am right now. So by all reasoning I should have gotten fatter THEN instead of now.

Then I realized that the time of all these dietary and weight changes started can be pin pointed to the exact timing I started this new pill.

Then I started thinking some more. The doctor told me that if I got the Depo Provera shot that I would likely gain a lot of weight -- anywhere from 15-20lbs or more in one years time. The Depo shot is the progestin hormone, no estrogen.

This is just a theory here but I would assume they could be linked. This new pill I'm on is a low estrogen dose and a high progestin dose. It is 3mg's of drospirenone (progestin) and 0.02mg's of ethinyl estradiol (estrogen.) It has the absolute lowest amount of estrogen you can have in an oral birth control.

So here's my theory. If the birth control I am on is high in progestin which is what is in the depo shot, and the depo shot can cause you to gain weight because of the high doses of progestin... then in theory this high progestin pill could be entirely responsible for such a large weight gain.

I decided to put that theory to test last night. I researched what people had to say about this brand of pill. It seemed like nearly everyone who said anything about it said that they gained quite a lot of weight while on it. "Changes in weight and appetite" are listed as a side effect but a few women did report that they lost weight while on it. However majority rules and this pill equals a fat maker.

I've concluded that this will be the last oral birth control I try. I'm done with the hormones right now, I just want my body to get back to it's own regular levels and hope the surgery does some good.

2 year olds are always right

This is the exact reason why I love kids so much:

Chrystal Martin Pete just asked if any one wanted a beer.... So James sits down in his Toronto chair and says ' I dont want a beer mommy, Its yucky'.... Like he was asked if he wanted a beer!!!!!! Funny!!

Every few days Chrystal updates her status and lately it's always something to do with something her 2 year old said. The kid is absolutely hilarious.

Chrystal Martin Why, Mommy Why???? Why do you think James?? I cant think mommy!!!!...... Conversation with my toddler, Gotta love it!!!!

Chrystal Martin So already James is making up excuses to not do things (like eat his supper or have a bath) " My finger hurts, I need go to doctor" Seriously now!!! I cant wait to see whats next.....

Chrystal Martin Is up and arguing with the James about the 'beaver' that is on my deck eating bird seed. He thinks they are the same as squirrels.

Hahaha I just think it's the cutest thing ever. I loved when my little sister was that age. She used to say and do the funniest things to the point where you would be crying you would laugh so hard.

I can hardly wait for the day that I can finally have kids. I know not every day will be great like that, but the good days will always make the bad days worth their while I'm sure.

Nerd Much?

Yes that's right. I'm being a nerd at 1 in the morning by taking typing tests on the internet.

I just achieved a score of 125 wpm with 2 errors (that hadn't been deleted and fixed.)

Not to shabby. Although I am averaging about 110 words per minute. My eyes hurt. It's bed time!

Nerd Much?

Yes that's right. I'm being a nerd at 1 in the morning by taking typing tests on the internet.

I just achieved a score of 125 wpm with 2 errors (that hadn't been deleted and fixed.)

Not to shabby.

Somedays It Feels Pointless

Every day I look at job postings. I'm in the midst of trying to find something for the end of this month.

So far obviously it's not going well mainly because I'm looking so far in advance and people need people now not later.

Every day though there are postings on there that are absolutely ridiculous and it pisses me off.

What people are paying right now is getting lower and lower. Receptionists a year ago were being offered a minimum of 15-16 bucks an hour. Now it's down to about 10-11 bucks an hour and they're asking for a minimum of 2 years experience. The odd time you'll find a 15 dollar an hour receptionist opening but they require at least 5 years of experience.

This whole "recession" thing really is taking a toll on the job industry. There are jobs out there, just not any decent paying ones. Nor are there very many good opportunities.

There's all these jobs that are asking for all of this experience but aren't willing to pay for it! They are trying to take advantage of the fact that people are out of jobs, so they can hire people for next to nothing now and people will take it because there aren't any better options.

It's frustrating really because at this point in time should I stick to changing directions and finding a new job, not only will I continue to struggle with trying to find one, but I will have to struggle to find TWO just to make enough to pay my bills.

My problem right now is that I don't have the experience I need to qualify for some of these jobs. It's unfortunate really because I can guarantee that I'd be damn good at any of them, but no one is willing to give you a chance.

I need a full time position first so that I at least have a full time job with steady hours, and once that schedule is set then I can worry about finding a part time job that works around the full time job. Neither is going to be easy.

It's frustrating and makes this decision a lot more difficult for me. Do I return to a job I am comfortable at, that I know well and am paid decently for? One that I am good at but can't work consistently? Do I sit here and hope that each day I'll feel well enough to do that job? Or do I give all that up assuming I can even find two mediocre shit jobs that I'll have to work 60+ hours a week at just to make ends meet? Right now neither put me in a good position.

I've never had trouble finding work before. I've always stuck to the trades industry though and my experience has always been relevant. I have the personality that suits working in a shop or out in the field. I had always been in well enough health to do the job until now. Now everything is turned upside down, I'm at home every day worrying about whether or not I'll ever be given the benefit of the doubt that I can do any of these other jobs of I've been applying for.

I just wish some once in a lifetime opportunity would come knocking on my door so that I could put this decision to rest.

2 in the afternoon and no success today.

Do you have an extra long q-tip that I can jab in my ears!!

There are times when I wish I could gouge out my ear drums. Tonight being one of those times.

I didn't realize it was perfectly acceptable and respectful to keep your door partially open while you're having sexy time when your roommate is in the room next to you.

Some days I just really miss my own space. I miss my old house in Fort. Mainly quiet where the only sex I would hear is when my one cat would hump the other one. At least when the one humped the other I could beat them till they stopped.

I think if this ever happens again, I'm going to do one of two things. Either slam the door shut while exclaiming 'the least you could do is close the door all the way...' and make it really awkward for them... ooor possibly just swing the door wide open so they have to stop to get up to shut it properly... also making it awkward for them.

I am so ready for a space that doesn't involve roommates. So ready.

Hoser Sports

Makin ze pizza.

The dough is rising. I'm nervous about it. You never know how yeast breads are going to turn out. Mainly because the slightest breeze can screw it all up. So -- I'm not going to look for another 15 minutes and if it's started to rise we're in the clear!!

Mmmm Pizza. I have lots of toppings. I always go overboard when it comes to meats and cheeses.

So. LIVE THREE HOUR BIGGEST LOSER FINALE TONIGHT!!

I suggest everyone reading this that they watch it cause honestly, the transformations are unbelievable. One of the guys has lost 164 pounds ON CAMPUS. They've been home for awhile now and will probs drop another 30 pounds on top of that.

Apparently it starts at 8pm. I figured they would have started it a little earlier than that since it's three hours long. That's good news for Dario at least.

My plan was to make him sit through it and watch it with me. My reason? I don't make him watch ANYTHING he hates or even slightly dislikes for 2-3 hours like he does to me. I put up with hockey, football, sometimes basketball and baseball.. and lets not forget UFC (I can handle that a little better than the other ones but I still don't like to watch it every single time he's over here or vice versa.)

Every single time he's over here or I'm over there sports comes on at least during commercials. He has gotten better but I still become playoff widow for all sports. Particularly around superbowl and hockey playoff times.

On top of sports I put up with shows like "The Deadliest Warrior" and "Mantracker" ... mmhmm. That's right, I put up with it all. ALL CRAP.

Every once in awhile I can convince him to put on something that at least entertains both of us, but it's still a rarity. And even when he does, every fuckin commercial he flicks back to sports and then conveniently "forgets" to turn it back until the show we BOTH enjoy is almost over.

It drives me nuts. It really does. I actually get extremely pissed off over it mainly because it's inconsiderate. I don't make him watch shit that he hates, he should be kind enough to do the same.

So tonight I was hoping that he would sit down with me and watch one of MY shows. I follow the biggest loser the same way he follows sports yet everytime MY show is on, I usually go home to watch it or he leaves so I can watch it. He never watches it with me.

I was really hoping that it would be on a little earlier, but I'm sure by 8pm Dario will almost be ready to head out so he won't have to suffer through the whole episode.

Pfft. I'll get you one day Dario. One of these days you will suffer through a few things you can't stand JUST so you know how I feel every time you put on sports.

I will say this -- As cool as it would have been to see the canucks in the finals -- I'm glad they're out so that it's one less major team to follow! Sadly as soon as this is over up starts football.

Fuck my life.

It's Just One Of Those Days

Friday was one of those weird days where your day starts off and nothing goes according to plan.

I don't usually have those. It's very rare at least.

Whenever I make an appointment I am there early. I give myself extra time in the slight chance that traffic is a bitch or I get lost.

So Friday I had my hair appointment. I look up the address on google and it says it's just before Nanaimo St on E. Broadway.

Well thanks to google being a LIAR... I discovered that it was in fact NOT just before Nanaimo and broadway...

I left at about 11:35 knowing full well I'd get there before 12. When I hit Nanaimo and hadn't seen it I turned around and circled the blocks a few times trying to find it. Finally at about 5 to 12 I had to call the salon to ask exactly where they were located. It turns out they're actually just past Arbutus in Kits and I had a ways to go yet.

I turned back around to start driving towards Kits. When I left the house my gas gauge was about halfway between the 1/4 tank mark and Empty. I knew my gas light would be on soon and it came on just as I was circling around Nanaimo St. but I figured it would make it until I got to the salon. However now that I knew the salon was all the way past Arbutus St. that I would probably have to fill up on my way back.

As I started driving though I realized I hadn't seen a gas station in quite some time and I was getting worried since I didn't know how much gas I really had left at this point. FINALLY I found one so I turned in to put in 20 bucks since I didn't have time to fill it up fully. It was a pain in the ass to get to the station since traffic was still rather busy and I had to cross three lanes to pull into it. Then to pull back out I had to do the same thing -- it was stupid. Of course I hit a couple streets down *Burrard* after stopping at the pain in the ass to get to station and there was a nice easy to get to gas station... ah well. I was back on my way to the salon.

I get there and I can't find anywhere to park. I'm driving around and around just trying to find a spot then finally I do. I had to parallel park on a hill... first time doing that cause I never parallel park anywhere unless I absolutely have to. I get the car parked without any troubles and get out.

It's pay parking and I realize I don't have any change on me so I pay by phone. I get to the corner and push the cross street button, and realize I left the gift certificate in the car. I walk back up to the car, grab it and FINALLY get to the salon.

I sit down and fill out some information and she gives me a tour of the salon. I put on my coat thing and sit down.

No jokes, just as I sit down, the fucking fire alarm goes off.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

I had to laugh. The lady must have thought I was crazy and finally I sighed and said 'It's just one of those days where NOTHING goes right.'

We ignored the fire alarm because apparently they do fire drills on Friday's, so we just kept at doing hair since I was already a half hour late. Thankfully there wasn't actually a fire. It was such an annoying morning.

I spent 3 hours at the salon having my hair highlighted. She's a very good colourist and knows her shit. By the end of the appointment she told me that once I start school I could come and work for her if I wanted. So I'll keep it in mind. It's a really small salon though and not very busy so I don't know if I would want to. I would rather work somewhere a little busier.

The whole weekend was a bit of an odd one. We had a funeral to go to on Saturday so plans sort of adjusted according to that. We were going to wash the cars but then the hockey game was on and stuff so the entire days plans were changed or moved.

Sunday was Mother's Day and as soon as lunch was over Dario opted to go play road hockey with a bunch of guys down at the park. Since I didn't have much for options I went with him and laid in the park and absorbed me some sun! I lucked out too since there was a little rottweiler puppy there so I went and played with him for a bit. He was so cute! It was boring as hell watching the guys play hockey. I did a crossword (as much as I could of one anyhow) and almost fell asleep on a bench. After all that Dario came over to my place and we ended up napping for two friggen hours. It was much needed.

I'm exhausted today since my back was bothering me a lot last night... aka I'm still all stoned up on muscle relaxants. I could sleep for hours right about now but I won't.

All in all a pretty uneventful but decent weekend. I have a couple phonecalls to make today but not too much else to do. Maybe I will find a small light dessert to make for dinner with the Ciavarro's tonight.

No Place Like Home(s)

My mom officially gets here in 11 days... meaning I have to condition my sleep pattern to get back to normal so I'm not up till 3am and then getting up with her at 7 or 8.

Due to the fact that my mom will be staying with me I will most likely be going blog-less for the week. This will be the first time my mom has actually STAYED with me so it's going to be pretty weird. I've never had a parent come and stay with me before... it's always been the other way around. Odd. Krystal will be in Toronto when my mom gets here though so at least we won't be too crowded in the house!

Tomorrow I'm getting my hair did... so hopefully it doesn't look too d-baggish... annnd I'm also going to book a few more bridal appointments. I've only booked the one so far but I needed to know a bit more about everyone's schedules before I booked anymore.

The wedding is just a little over a year away. Kind of crazy. It's pretty surreal still since it's still quite far off... but I think it's also hard to believe since I haven't had my parents here to share any of the wedding stuff with. Until this past Friday none of my parents (or family for that matter) have seen me since before Dario and I got engaged. I didn't get to show them my ring, I didn't get to have congratulatory hugs with them, I don't get to go through magazines with my moms to find all the cute ideas. It's kind of sad actually. They're not able to be included in any of the planning basically since they can't be here.

I think the whole wedding thing will hit me when I'm out trying dresses on and my mom is actually with me. That will probably be when I say, "weird... I'm going to be getting married."

I still find it kind of sad that I didn't get to share any of the engagement excitement with my family. A phone call just doesn't do it I guess.

Just one of those things in life you have to deal with because you moved away. It's going to be the same thing all over again when Dario and I start having babies. I won't get to tell my parents that I'm pregnant in person -- it'll be over the phone... and they probably won't be here for the births either. That's kind of hard to swallow, -- knowing that because I live 10 hours away my family will miss out on some of my most precious moments in life.

It's bittersweet I suppose. It all makes me so happy, but there's still a part that of course is sad. When you're as close with your family as I am with mine, you want to be able to share those important times, and my family and I will simply miss out on that. My future family will miss out on that. It definitely makes me appreciate the times I do get to see them a lot more, but ... imagine your parents not being there for the birth of your first/second/third (however many) child... imagine them not being one of the first people that get to hold your baby/babies. It's just weird.

I don't regret moving here, not at all... but I do find sometimes that I feel a little jealous for my family because Dario's family gets to experience everything, and my family gets to experience a lot less.

But again -- that's the nature of moving.

I'm always going to have that void. Unless my immediate family moves here, it's always going to be there. For now it's just worse because I still don't have a 'home' yet.

They say that home is where you make it... so I will find home a little over a year from now when Dario and I are joined to be the first members of our own family. The house we live in together -- that's going to be 'home.'

The Big Two Four

I would re-post last years birthday pictures, but I'm sure you'd appreciate it if I didn't!

You are an amazing person -- beautiful, strong, hilarious -- and I am so happy to know that you're going to be such a big part of my life forever!

Here's to 24 and only getting more awesome from here!

Oh... and let's not forget that no matter what you'll always be a bazillion years younger than Chad!

<3 Happy Birthday Danielle! You deserve the nothing but the best!

Oliver Had A Night On The Town

My aunt posted a picture on facebook today.

She has a cat named Oliver. He's a big orange friendly neighbourhood tom cat.

This is what she came home to today:



Oliver had a night on the town!

Hair poll

It's been two months since I've dyed my hair and already over a month with the bangs. They're getting long and need trimming. Also, I was given a gift certificate for a salon that I've never been to and I'm due for a colour since my roots are starting to get a little disgusting so I was thinking in the next week I'll go for a dye job.

Soooo question...

Yay or nay to keeping the bangs and going blonder??

Thanks to the little bitch that keyed my car over the weekend. I really love having both my passenger doors gouged to shit because you were being a stupid fucking asshole.

If I ever fucking see you, I won't even remotely hesitate to shoot you in both your fucking knee caps... that way you can't run away from me when I proceed to beat the living shit out of you.

FUCK YOU!

Can I Go Back To Sleep Yet?

Well... I have a list of shit that I was going to do today and so far I've accomplished nothing.

I haven't been on the computer this morning for more than 10 minutes to quickly check a couple e-mails. I sat and stared at recipe books for about an hour or so getting pissed off at the fact that they only have about 5 pictures of items in the book. I really dislike cookbooks without pictures. When I decide what I am making I enjoy seeing a picture of the final product so I can decide whether or not it's worth my time.

I read over Rachel Ray's list of shit you should have in your kitchen at all times. About 90% of the items I do keep on hand at all times, the other 10% I don't use often enough to bother so I pick it up when I need it. I figure about 90% is a pretty good number. I have the basics.

I need to do a grocery run, and am debating going to costco but I don't think I need much from there right now, at least not anything in bulk form.

The weekend was a good weekend. My parents were in town on Friday and it was a very rushed visit with them but still a good one. We managed to get through the day in one piece and without getting lost. A good start to the day. We met with Dario's parents for dinner at the Keg, but first I showed my parents where I live and where Dario and I will be living (since it was on our way to the Keg anyways.) This is the first time they've ever come to Vancouver since I've lived here so it was really exciting to FINALLY show them a piece of my life. My parents want to get out of Fort but they said they could never live down here. It's too busy for them. I find Burnaby a very comfortable area to adjust to. It was definitely a big change but easier to get settled in than say downtown Van would be. I still have no desire to ever live downtown, it would be much too overwhelming for me. I like having the greenery of Burnaby surround me.

All in all, everything went really well Friday. Our parents got along well by starting off the evening with joking. Dario's mom blew me away by how open and comfortable she seemed, normally she is quite a shy person so I was very impressed with the fact that she was entirely herself!

My dad asked if we would drive them to the airport Saturday morning. They were originally just going to shuttle it from their hotel but my dad said he really wanted to spend as much time as he could with me while they were here. Dario and I picked them up at 7 and we stopped at a timmies quickly for a 45 minute visit and a bite to eat. Afterwards we dropped them off at the airport and headed home.

For some unknown reason I had been up since 2:30 in the morning, so around 9am I went down for a nap. My phone is usually very quiet, I don't get a lot of phonecalls or text messages but for some reason I was getting a couple calls and text messages every hour. I did manage to get about an hour of sleep in there which was good enough to get me through the rest of the day so we could watch the terrible hockey game with Danielle and Chad.

Just so everyones clear --- I hate Byfuglien. I want someone to hurt him so that he can't play anymore games in the playoffs. I won't even begin to express the discontent everyone had with the hockey game -- you can't win em all but it was a terrible game. We left early since no one was in the mood to keep watching. Dario dropped me off and went home to bed. I was up for a few more hours but finally went to bed around 11:30.

I don't remember the last time I slept through the night without waking up at least once. Like clockwork every morning at 3am (give or take 15 mintutes) I wake up. Every single night. I usually struggle falling back asleep and then the rest of my sleep is off and on. I don't know if it's just problems with my sleeping or if my bed sucks. Who knows. It could be a combination of both but I hope it comes to an end soon whatever the reason may be! Lately I've been waking up a minimum of 3 times each night.

I woke up at 8 on Sunday to find the shower was in use by Krystals boyfriend. I had to be at Dario's at quarter to 9 and I was annoyed at the fact that he was in the bathroom when I needed to be out of the house soon. By the time I was finally able to use the shower it was about quarter after 8 so I had half an hour to have a shower, put make up on, somewhat style hair, get dressed decently, and drive to Dario's. I was pissed to say the least and was instantly in a bad mood. I somehow made it to his place on time and to church on time so whatever I guess.

After church we went to the mall to finally get Dario some new clothes and also went on a small shoe hunt. We finally did find a pair of size 14 shoes and they didn't fit. I hate shoe shopping with him because his options are so limited. Usually he can't find his size, and if he does the shoes are ugly as fuck or they're all out of 14's. It's really frustrating so we usually don't end up searching for too long. After awhile you get sick of trying. He hasn't bought a new pair of casual shoes in 4 years now because he can't find any that he likes in his size. Is it THAT hard to find a pair? Fuck.

Aside from that, the clothes shopping went well, he got a few new items and I believe I've finally convinced him that he should buy a new shirt here and there so that he doesn't have to do this binge shopping where he needs all new everything. He tried to bribe me by asking if we could leave since he would buy more stuff in a month or two. I said fine cause we were both really sick of shopping by that point! I did however manage to find a pair of the black yoga pants I've been looking for. Dario approved so I went ahead and bought them. The girl working there found it hilarious -- if only she knew the obsession he has with black yoga pants.

Afterwards we ended up spending some time at his place doing some crosswords from a couple books we bought, then headed to my house for dinner and more casual hang out. It was a nice way to end spend a Sunday actually, even with the frustrating morning we had!

Now it's back to Monday where I really feel lazy today, although I will go to the gym tonight and mail the mothers their cards for M-Day. I thought the canucks were playing tonight but apparently thats tomorrow? Don't know whats up there but whatever. That works for me!

Sorry, no pictures again. One day.

The End Is Near

Two more months. Two more months and I don't have to worry about this shit anymore.

3am banter

Do you ever go to sleep just to wake up a few hours later?

I was in bed finally at quarter to 12 after getting home at 11. I fell asleep nicely, then bam, 2:30 hits and I'm wide awake. Now it's even worse cause I realized I didn't tell Dario what time we're meeting my parents in the morning... Then I started thinking about parking at the airport with Dario's truck and how it's all underground parking. I know his truck would fit but underground parking is always a bitch, so I started thinking that maybe we should take my car .................. Then I realized maybe the airport tim hortons isn't even open yet for the time we plan to be there, in which case we will have to go a different way to the airport to hit a timmies on the way. So then I had to find this timmies on the way which I ended up knowing exactly where it is but needed a quick look at a map to see how to get there from my parents hotel.

Now I'm wide awake wondering why I just spent all this effing time worrying about our hour long visit in the morning when I actually know where I'm going and could have just figured this all out at 5:30 this morning when I was supposed to be awaking.

Maybe now that I have everything figured out I can go back to sleep.