Buntzen Lake Glory

That sign should read: DANGER. MUDHOLES THAT SUCK YOUR SANDALS IN AND BREAK THEM!

I decided to take Chad and Danielle's advice and got in my car, picked up Mark, and went to Buntzen lake. I must say I really enjoyed it. It was awesome. Aside from having my sandal sucked into the mud and breaking, it was great hahaha. There's these crazy huge redwood tree stumps all over the place, except now theres new tree's growing out of them. It's insane! I'd never seen anything like it. There was this crazy hole right beside where Mark is standing in one of the pictures and I took a picture of what it looked like. I wanted to crawl inside but fuck that noise, there's probably something crazy just waiting to eat curious children that hides inside.


So Dario if you're reading this... we're going canoeing there for sure you would absolutely LOVE it! Plus I wanna see the other side of the lake oh my god it looked so beautiful. It was a perfect day for it and it totally made me feel like I was home all over again. FINALLY a place I can swim in that's fresh water and absolutely no sight of the city anywhere.



I had to take pictures cause it was just so pretty there. :)

haha mark "littering" in front of the no littering sign. He picked it up :P

I didn't even get a sunburn today! haha Mark did but I somehow managed not to. How? I don't know. Holy shit though the water was pretty cold. I finally sucked it up and dove in, but not for long, enough to cool down and get back out and bake in the sun again!





Man I can't even express how happy being there made me though. This whole summer so far, every nice day I've just wanted to pack my shit and head to fort to hit the lake. I never knew of any lakes that were somewhat close by that I could go to, until this weekend. So I'm really really glad I've been able to check this place out.

I should attempt to sleep. So I'm not dead tomorrow. Damn this stupid cold bullshit.

Summer Colds And Beautiful Weather

Well, my weekend is almost over and it's been a rather entertaining one. Friday D, A, M and I had our girls wine night, Saturday I got to experience the Mirage in all of its glory hah, Sunday was a relax day, eat some ice cream cake and then go home and laze around some more. Today I have some productive things that need to get done, like finish signing my step-moms birthday card that I made her, as well as put something in there and get it mailed out asap so it makes it there on time. I think I'll do a crap load of laundry as well. And then sit around and eat tostito's and salsa mmm haha. Maybe I'll try to bake in the sun for a bit too, who knows.

I got a really interesting e-mail today from Dario. And I say interesting but really mean 'e-mail full of shit' haha. He called me while I happened to be at the mirage and I couldn't hear him so he said 'HANG UP AND I'LL LEAVE A MESSAGE' ... so I wake up, there's still no message. What the shit Dario? So... I e-mail him to say 'so uh, where's my message hm?' And this is the response I got...:

Hey Mar. Ok yeah so about the message... I was JUST about to leave it, when i swear to god a freak storm appeared out of nowhere. there was thunder and lighting! a hurricane appeared out of nowhere. there were cows flying in mid air. entire houses ripped from their foundation! it was insane! and just when i thought the worst of it had passed a giant sea creature crawled out of the ocean! it was from somewhere by venice... anyways it crawled all the way to me. and it cut off the arm that was holding the phone! and it spoke to me! IN A HUMAN VOICE!!! and it said if i made that call and left that message it would proceed to cut my head off! well seeing as how we plan on one day getting married, i knew having no head would impair that dream. so i decided to listen. he gave me the phone back. i went tot he hospital and had my arm reattached. so all is good now, except for the fact i didnt leave a message... which i just explained why i didnt... lol.

So yes... that is apparently why I received no such message. Nice try a-hole. haha. Always so dramatic.

I woke up this morning with a sore back for some weird reason, I'm thinking I'm sleeping in really messed up positions and that's what's doing it. Who knows. I'll pop some tylenol in hopes that it'll help this stupid cold that I've managed to catch, as well as the back pain w00t.

So yes, back to the weekend. Girls night turned out to be awesome. We had planned on watching girly movies but we never even made it that far haha. Apparently when you get four girls who like to talk together, there's no time to stop talking unless its to shove food in our mouths or drink. I had such a good time though! I can't wait till the next time we all get together!

mmm lots of cheese and freshcut salsa.

Melissa brought fudge, the white one, oh my god, SO GOOD!

We tried our usual take pictures of everything, but surprisingly no one took an over abundance of pictures this time haha. Again, too busy talking.

Miss Alicia! giving what looks like a dirty look but really is a look of pure interest. haha

Melissa! I couldn't get any good pictures cause I pretty much stayed where I was sitting the entire time, I was so comfy. haha

After all of that noise I went home at about 1:30 in the morning, and for some reason I had a really sore throat. Great, a summer cold. AWWWESOME. So I hoped that if I got a good sleep I could sleep it off, however that wasn't the case. I was like death warmed over on Saturday. I woke up at 6 first off, I just about crapped my pants because I thought I was late for work haha. You know that initial shock you get when you wake up late for something? "SHIT. FUCK. SHIT." yeah... well, I did that, except I didn't have to work. So when I finally got my shit together and realized it was Saturday I fell back asleep. I woke up at about 9:30 and was like, oh my god kill me now. My head felt so fat! So I got up and took some nyquil, and laid on the couch and started watching something on tv. I don't even remember what cause I made it probably 2 minutes in and passed out. Somewhere in there my roommate asked me if I wanted pancakes, and said she was going to the beach and thats about all I managed to hear. I had passed out to the max, and woke up when she left at like 1pmish. I fell back asleep till 2/2:30 and got up and had a shower. I contemplated not going out that night because I felt so poopy, but I decided to suck it up and pop some tylenol and head out to teeny bopper central.

I met up with Danielle and Chad and we decided to take my car since it was universal. It had air conditioning and it's automatic... perfect, the least drunk person could drive home haha.

We got there early enough to not pay cover, but way to early to actually walk inside, so we sat in the car for a bit till it was a little later haha.

This was so funny haha. We were having this conversation through the headrest and this is all I could see haha. So I took a picture mid conversation.

Eventually we went in to see this place. Sloots everywhere. Holy shit haha. Girls were taking their clothes off before 10pm. No jokes. All so they could get free booze. I think at that point I was pretty much floored by how sleazy girls can be.

Danielle doing what she likes to call 'bringing back 2005' haha

I still have Naomi and Dave's wedding bubbles in my purse haha (I'm a packrat) and we busted them out to entertain ourselves.

He's like a friggen cat hahaha.

HAHA. Oh god. This picture makes me laugh. They were dancing, and apparently Chad figured it looked better at the time than the camera captured... but I think it looks like Danielle is threatening to beat him and he's contemplating life haha.

Dancing!

We had a few tries at this. This was the best one. aww <3

Ignore the hairy arm haha.

So that was basically the weekend. I'm still fighting off my stupid cold so I think I'm going to go have some breakfast and lay around for a little bit longer :)

Now who's a dirty stinky colon?

Apologies for the very boourns depressing post the other day. I'm out of my mood now so quick post since I don't have time to actually write anything interesting.

I have dinner at Denis and Rachel's tonight which I'm really looking forward to. Last night I went over to the Perizzolo household to visit with Tania since she was taking off for Italy today so that was nice. Aside from that.... nothing new.

I did however forget what it was like to have to use 4 or 5 q-tips (both sides! gross) to clean my ears, and how dirty under my nails gets, and how I have to mix fast orange with my face cleaner sometimes to get all the dirt off. School was like a fricking luxury I tell you haha. Back to the grind that's for sure. But I am enjoying it :)

I stink. I am dirty. I am in desperate need of a shower. Good day.

You'll get used to it...

Someone told me the other night that he has a hard time understanding/getting used to the fact that my parents are divorced and what not and I need to write about it I think because for some reason it's really been eating away at me.

He said I can talk about it as if its a normal thing and that I'm used to it, but to him it's very different and abnormal. A part of me was a little bit hurt by it, even though he was just stating how he felt and thats perfectly fine, but only for the reason that just because I grew up with it and it's how my life has always been, doesn't mean that I am ever used to it. To this day, I still remember the exact words I said when my dad told me "your mom doesn't want to be with me anymore" and I still remember his exact face, I still remember that being only one of the two times I've ever seen my dad cry in my entire life. I still remember exactly what my mom was doing at that time, I still remember how angry I was at her and how loud I screamed at her. I still remember her bathwater running. I can still hear it all in my head, I can still see it all, and I can still to this day feel how hurt I was.

Try telling a 6 year old that she will get used to her mom telling her that her dad isn't going to be home to tuck her into bed for awhile. Or try telling her that she'll get used to only remembering maybe a max of 10-15 visits she had with her mom for 2 years afterwards. Try telling her that she'll get used to hearing her parents scream at each other so loudly that even when they're yelling on the phone you can hear every word crystal clear in the next room. Try telling her that she'll get used to having a stepmom. Try telling her that when she gets her first period it will be her stepmom who knows first, not her mom. Try telling her that she'll get used to hurting and being angry for years upon years. And tell her that she'll get used to coming home crying to her dad because her mom hurt her once again.

Even though 15 years of my life have been spent with one parent and a step parent, doesn't mean I'm used to it. I'm still not used to hearing my parents fight, I'm still not used to arguments with my step-parents. I still hate that I have to do everything separate, two christmas', two graduations, two birthdays. I hate having arguments over which house we're staying at for christmas dinner and who gets us for thanksgiving. I hate even thinking about how the hell I'm going to deal with it all when I get married because I'm worried my family won't even be able to be civil then. People think as you get older it gets easier, but it doesn't. There is no getting used to anything.

So ask me, ideally, would I change any of it? Absolutely. In an ideal world my parents would be happily married. Because even at almost 21 I sometimes wish things would have been different. But ask me... realistically, would I change any of it? Absolutely not. Why? Because I learned way more this way than I feel I would have the other way, and I'm a better, stronger person because of it. And you know what, some of my favourite childhood memories still include coming home to my dad drunk and having him pick me up to dance with him and puking over my shoulder and all over the floor only to continue dancing. Every girl remembers her first dance, that happened to be mine, and I'd never change it. Because through all the bullshit, all my dads drinking and all my moms crap, my dad still made the right choices at the right time and did the absolute best he could for us. And whether anyone else judges him upon the things he's done is their choice, but I know him at his best, and I know him at his worst, and even at his worst, he still loved me.

I apologize for this all being so negative and crappy, but I guess it just needed to come out.

This picture is one of my favourite 'baby' pictures. It was the last Christmas we spent together before my parents divorced.

Painted Nails And A Gold Chain

Ahhh I'm hanging out inside on a Saturday night. Relaxing night number one. Yesterday afternoon Dan from school and I decided to get together for a drink before he took off for PG. We met up at the BCIT pub but they close super early (apparently like 5pm they stop serving its weird) so we went up to the mountain shadow instead. Which was probably a better choice since the drinks were better and double highballs were 5.50 so it worked out perfectly. We were going to go out to the cambie but then Dan had a family emergency so he took off to the hospital and I got to go to bed, which was awesome since I was starting to get pretty tired.

Today I woke up around 9. Krystal had invited some friends over at 11am for a booze and breakfast... so everyone was drinking their coffee and bailey's and a few were drinking their beer and wine. It wasn't too bad though, they came over for the soccer game but soccer isn't really my thing so after awhile I just wanted to leave. So my friend Mark and I decided to go out for icecream instead. When we came back everyone had left so that was a bonus... they were all nice and everything but there just wasn't really any common ground and they had a really weird sense of humor that I'm just not used to haha.

We decided to go back to Ikea this afternoon to find Mark a new mattress since his bed is probably the equivalence of sleeping on a rock, but of course for the second time now the mattress he wanted was out of stock. Haha it wasn't his day. I love ikea though, I could have a hay-day in that store. I don't know what it is about house stuff but it's just so exciting and fun to buy.

Overall today has been a pretty mediocre day. I still feel really bored for some reason. There isn't much on tv right now so I'm tempted to just go to bed. On the bright side though Dario called this morning :) he said he's going to try to find me a blanket, and asked what I would want instead of the blanket if he can't find one (apparently they are hard to come by there) so I said a purse. He was still insistent that he will not buy me a purse, but then I heard Sabrina in the background go 'I'LL BUY IT FOR HER!' hahaha I was so excited! So that made my day, it was so nice to hear from him again.

Tomorrow I get to do a test run on Danielle's bridesmaids so I'm looking forward to that. I'm hoping things will run smoothly, this should give us a pretty good idea of how long it's going to take.

But I think I'm going to go watch a movie or something. I tried to scrapbook earlier but I don't have any creative ideas coming to me so whatever, maybe tomorrow night or something.

I think I'm going to go back to bed.

Welllll so much for 'celebrating' today. Majority of the class didn't bother showing up. There wasn't a point even. Aside from seeing our final marks and what we got on our projects it was pointless. So the celebratory drinking day has been cancelled.

I did well on my structural steel project. 97%. I think the only thing that I may have lost a mark or two on was the fact that my plates were 1mm out of size. Not a big deal, you're almost always allowed 1/16 to 1/8 leniency on projects unless noted that it has to be specifically to size so whatevs.

I'm glad its over with though, hopefully I'll get a different teacher in March. I'd really hate to have him again, he's good at teaching theory but he doesn't help you at all when you're in the shop. He just expects that he can do an overview of the shop project and you should automatically know how to fit it properly... yah right buddy. Those things take practice.

Buuuuut overall, I got 89% in the course. So I'm happy with that. I would have liked to have done better but whatevs. Considering no one in his class ever gets over 91% I did well. Now I can't wait to go back to work and actually be able to practice this stuff and put it to use with the things that we actually build. :)

Dario called me this morning to let me know he landed. I was so excited to hear from him. I had trouble going to sleep last night because I didn't get to say goodnight to him. I told him a million times, I can't fall asleep well if I can't say goodnight haha. It's become such a routine now. Even if we don't hang out one of us will still phone the other before we go to bed to say goodnight. So needless to say I'm screwed without him hahaha. I know these two weeks are definitely going to put things in perspective for us on how we really feel about each other. As Danielle said. :)

We had a good laugh because I'm always freezing, for some odd reason I always need to have a blanket on me when I'm watching tv, or laying down or whatever. Even if it's a million degrees and I'm way too hot, I have to have a blanket. It's just a comfort thing and habit I guess. So when I was fighting for the blanket the other day he said 'maybe I'll just bring you a blanket back from Italy.' I was like 'OH MY GOD YES!' haha but he said no because he has no room in his suitcase. Ooooh well.

Since I have had next to no sleep I think I'm going to go back to bed now that the day is full of NOTHING plans haha. Nappy time :D

I'm done!

School is pretty much officially over now. Tomorrow we'll sort of get an idea of what our marks are. Our last project is finished, I might touch mine up in the morning since we have another 2 hours to work on it if needed, but I think I'm just gonna say fuck it at this point hah.

We had 4 tests today, I'm not sure how I did on them, hopefully they'll boost my mark a little bit, I did kinda shitty on one of the last tests and it lowered my mark a few percent so hopefully this project and these tests'll boost it. Although I'm not sure how well I did on two of them, the other two I think I did pretty decently. Guess I'll find out tomorrow ugh haha.

Dario has left for the airport and is waiting to get on a plane. Sigh haha I was kind of sad as weird as that is, it's not like he's gonna be gone for long or anything, but I suppose I'll miss him a little while he's away.

I'm listening to 80's tunes haha. A CD one of my girlfriends from back home made me... haha I'm listening to 'Bringing on the heartache' or whatever it is haha. I like it for some weird reason.

I'm going through a bunch of my music to see what kind of stupid crap I have on here. I'm finding a lot of it haha. So I've now changed my 'easy listening' to 'hey stoopid' by alice cooper HAHA. This song reminds me so much of my dad, he'd always sing that one stupid verse all the time to bug us when we were kids. Usually happening in the kitchen first thing in the morning when we'd woken up and wanted to kill him cause we were so bitchy haha.

haha ohh I just found the rodeo song by David allen cole hahaha... "well its 40 below and I don't give a fuck gotta heater in my truck and I'm off to the rodeo... come on you fuckin dumby get your right step right... you piss me off, you fuckin jerk, get on my nerves! Well here comes johnny with his pecker in his hand he's a one ball man and he's off to the rodeooo" ... haha I'm pretty sure Honeywell downloaded this song at a party I had one night and played it a billion times over haha such a redneck song.

Alright I'm bored and starving. I'm going to go eat.

I think the shit paper kittens are cute

I'm listening to country haha. And for some reason looking up the most popular wedding songs chosen for first dances and father daughter dances and walk in songs haha. It's most entertaining. There's this song I love that I'd totally have as my father/daughter dance if it didn't turn all boyfriend girlfriendish shit after the first verse. haha But I love there first verse....

She's got her daddy's tongue and temper,
sometimes her mouth could use a filter,
God shook his head the day he built her,
oh but I bet he smiled....

then after that it just wouldn't work haha.

There's too many corny songs though. I think if I get married I'm going to have to do a half amusing song just so that I don't cry like a little bitch, cause I'm totally a suck, and my dad's totally a suck, and I know he'd probably be telling me how proud he is and what not, in turn making me cry, and so therefor, if I have a song that's funny and can make everybody laugh it'll keep the crying business to a minimum haha.

Why I'm thinking about this, I have noooo idea, but, it's killing time until Darios dentist appointment is over with.

Time to shower I think.

Shoot me in the Uterus.

Ugh. It's going to be a crazy couple of days I think. I stayed late after class today to finish up a couple of my drawings. Luckily for us our test was moved to Thursday. He wanted to have the test tomorrow afternoon HAH.... get this...

We still have more material in this unit to go over, he wanted to go over it all in the morning, teach it to us, then test us on this unit, and 2 others after lunch. I guess he realized it wasn't a good idea and decided to finish the unit in the morning, then we'll go down to the shop and do the shop project for this unit, and then he'll test us on it on thursday. Much better. It'll be nice because yeah learning it in theory is fine, but generally once you actually have to put the theory to use for the practical part of it all, you get a way better understanding of what the hell you're doing on paper. Friday I think we're just going to class to get our marks and then we're off for the day. Apparently we're going to the pub to celebrate the second it opens at 11am. It should be mildly entertaining to say the least.

My nose is still sunburned and starting to peel, its grossing me out. I tried to rub it as hard as I could to make it all peel off already, but it's not working haha.

Danielle and I went hair shopping last night quickly. Now I've just gotta take a look around for a couple products that I'll need for the big event and that's done. Pretrials for her bridesmaids are on Sunday and we're going to reschedule a day for her hair, which works better for me too because then it'll be more one on one sorta deal and it breaks it up a bit. It'll probably take a couple of hours for the bridesmaids, I'm really hoping no more than 45 minutes per hairstyle for them. I figure that should be all it takes, 10-15 to get curlers in, 10-15 to set, 15 to pin up. Should be good.

Dario leaves on Thursday for Italy and will be gone until the 4th he tells me. So it should be an interesting couple of weeks I suppose. Hopefully I will be able to find some things to do to kill the time. I was thinking of getting together with Rachel and the kids if she's not too busy. I have no idea what the hell I'm going to do for the long weekend, maybe I'll work if I can. Or just go hiking and get lost on a mountain somewhere. Yeah who knows. I will see Dario tomorrow night... more than likely it'll be for a whole 5 minutes since I'd put money on him not having packed yet meaning tomorrow he will get home from work, eat, shower, by that time it'll be around 7, and in which case he will then start packing. It'll probably take him half an hour or so and then after that he'll be falling asleep by 8. W00t I might get a half hour window to spend time with him.

I feel really poopy tonight. I just finished laying on the couch for a few hours and watched the superstar hair challenge finale. I can hardly wait for thursday for the biggest loser australia finale. It's going to be so exciting. Wow my life is boring.

I feel like my lower abdominal region has been run over by a semi. I think it's time to go back to the doctors. Perhaps tomorrow after school. I think I'm going to go take a heavy dose of muscle relaxants and get some rest. It hurts to even breathe in.

Alright enoughs enough, I'm blogging normally

Okay so I looked up some of this shit on the net and so far so good. So whatevs. It's all good.

So whats been happening as of late... well... Gun courses are completed, limited entries have been sent in, and hopefully I will get my bull draw, that would excite me greatly. It'd be pretty cool if Dario got his too.

Uhhh so what else is new... School is almost over, I have one week left. I can hardly wait until it's done. I am getting so out of shape and so fat and lazy it's not even funny haha. I find I'm a very un motivated person when I'm not using much energy during the day. All I want to do is sleep it seems. Whatevs, soon enough, then maybe I can get back on schedule with the gym and everything, that would be nice.

Yesterday I had a company baseball tournament. It was a good time. We were out there for about 5 or 6 hours or so and it was a blast haha. Only one person got smacked in the face with the ball, her poor face was so red for the rest of the day. Swollen lip and all.

Today was Fasha's day, so I called my dad and wished him a happy fathers day. I made him a card and sent him some cash because I wasn't sure what our plan was, if everyone was still pitching in for the airless paint gun that he wanted (that he ended up going out and buying himself) or what, so I guess he'll just pocket that and do with it what he will haha. I found him a nice camo hat as well that I thought he'd like. And I was right. I found a really cool sporting goods store actually that I picked up the limited entries from so I think for his birthday I'll go back there and find something cool again. It's nice being in a city where there's actually great gifts to buy people, not like home where there's really no places to shop from.

I got a sunburn yesterday, as per usual. My opaque skin is no match for the UV rays apparently. Dario gets a tan, I get a burn. Unfair to the max. But thats okay. He leaves for Italy on Thursday and I'm sure will come back actually looking Italian, which is quite sad for me because I'm already so white compared to him haha. Whatevs. I told him to bring me something back, like a purse. But he's not going for it. I need a new purse, mine is thrashed but I guess I'll have to go on a mission to find one myself.

Wednesday Danielle and I are going hair shopping. It should be pretty exciting haha. I'm looking forward to it. Then Sunday we are going to do some pretrials to see how long everything is going to take and how it's all going to turn out. Hopefully all will go well. I will have to go through the ideas again before Wednesday comes to decide for sure on what I'm going to look for.

Okay so that is that. It is nice to be blogging about my not really exciting life haha. I'd gotten so used to blogging that it became habit to just come on the internet after school or work and surf through the daily blog checks and e-mail and facebook and whatever else haha. My life was missing something without my blog :(

I had stuff I wanted to share earlier this week, but I already forgot it so, this is all you get for now haha. I'm off to watch tv and go to bed now.

I'm back?

I haven't much to say, and probably won't for awhile yet... I'm still testing out the privacy on this set up I've got going on and if I can't figure out how to make things a little more private then I will probably choose to quit blogging all together.

So in the mean time my posts will be limited until I feel a little more safe about this whole risky business.

As for right now, I'm going to go finish my homework.