Well... I am waiting for some movies to finish downloading so I can lay down and relax and fall asleep.
My fish is swimming around the top of his tank like crazy staring at me, probably wanting more food but I think he's eaten enough this afternoon, I feed him so much and he eats it all, it's crazy. I think he likes being in my bedroom more than he liked being in the livingroom haha.
My shoulder smells like Dario's deoderant. And I like it. As twisted as that probably sounds I have a feeling you girls will understand haha. He has the best smelling deoderant I have ever smelled, and no joke it's by old spice. I never thought they'd make a really nice smelling deoderant, but sooo good.
I had an eye doctors appointment today. It went quite well, I was pretty excited. I told her about this black dot I always have that gets all up in my left eye, haha apparently it's normal, but man is it ever annoying. It's only in the left eye too. Everytime I see it I think of Stewie from family guy when he thinks he has cancer from being in the suntan booth for too long and coming out with a mysterious mole. So funny haha.
But yes, so I decided to try contacts again since the last time I never ended up buying any because they were so crazy expensive and then I was in the process of moving so it just didn't happen. So she gave me a trial pair, and after like 10 minutes of having them in my eyes they felt really good, and I've had them in since and they still feel really good. So I bought a box. There's 6 in a box, but I am the same prescription in both eyes (odd cause my last eye doctor gave me a -1.00 and -1.25 but apparently my one eye is -1.15 so I can go either a 1.00 or a 1.25... nice to know... I'll stick with -1.00's for convenience sake.) So yes, they're a new kind of contact thats only been out for about 4 months. Keeping in tune with my trial of new things (aka my birth control is also new to the market) I figured I'd try them. They're called Air Optix. They're basically neck and neck with acuvue oasis 2 week disposables, but these ones are one month lenses and if you don't wear them every day (like me cause I will basically only wear them on weekends and when I go out) then they last up to three months. Not bad, basically one box will last me 7-9 months for 50 bucks. Not bad at all. I'm down with that. So I'm pretty excited. It's so weird though you forget what it feels like to see without having something on your face, so I'm having a bit of trouble adjusting. The computer screen is the same but when I look over and see the mirror, and my face isn't all blurry, it's just odd haha.
I'm leaving for the northern region in a week and a half and I am SO EXCITED! I'm getting my hair done on the 17th... any suggestions on what I should do? I'm dying it, probably blonde and dark brown with some red in there too. I'll let my hairdresser feel it out and see what she thinks. But I have no idea if I should cut my bangs so I have swoopy side bangs, or if I should get a really blunt cut, or even a bob. I just don't know. I'm trying to grow it out, cause as much as I'd love a bob I'm trying not to cut the back too much, it's nice being able to throw my hair into a ponytail when I'm at work and not have it all up in my face all day. Again... leave suggestions... with links to pictures preferably if you do have ideas. I'm so bored with my hair it needs something done to it in a serious way.
God my movie is taking it's sweet time, it's only like 60% done. FACK. Todaaaaaay. I should go return a phonecall before I forget.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Chocolate Cake Pleeeeeeeease???
Oh my goooood I'm craving chocolate cake like nobody's business. So I just had a banana with some peanut butter and nahing... still craving chocolate cake. So I made a sandwich hoping that it will fill me up enough to stop me from thinking about food. GUH! But more than likely it's not gonna happen cause the sandwich is gone and I'm still thinking about friggen chocolate. Whatever.
I was very adulty today. I did all of my laundry, and finally cleaned out my closet a bit. I have way too many things that I've been keeping (a lot of them in guilt cause they were gifts from my mom) and I finally got sick of having it all somehow end back up in the laundry and getting washed over and over again. So. I got rid of it, some went in the garbage and some went to donations. I even went through my work clothes and chucked some of the really crappy ones that I never wear. It felt really good to finally clear out some shit outta this friggen cramped up room.
I mean don't get me wrong, the bedroom is a decent size, but overall when you're sharing a place with a person you can't store things where you would like to normally. I have two closets in my bedroom, which is a good thing cause I don't know where else I'd put any of this shit. I have one closet dedicated to boxes of pictures, a tv, a little cabinet that my tv sits on that has shit shoved in it too haha. My bear rug also lives in there, and my work clothes are stored in there. As for my other closet my good clothes and shoes are in there, along with my snowboard boots, a couple purses, books and school binders etc.... and even a jewellry box that belonged to my mom when she was quite young. Come to think of it, I've needed a jewellry box for a long time to put all of my necklaces in but since I'm picky and the one that belonged to my mama is old school and pretty tacky, I don't really want to use it but maybe I'll suck it up and bust it out. I don't really like the jewellry box I just like it for the memory sake of it. I used to always play with it when I was a kid and I remember winding it up every morning when my mom was getting ready for work to listen to the music. I just don't know where I'll put it?? I need a shelf in here. A shelf would be magnificent, but again, where the hell would I put that??
We don't have a storage closet in here either, so again, no extra crap can be hidden. Which really sucks. God I can't wait to have a friggen house one day. Or even a rented place for that matter that has a little bit more space in it. This place is driving me nuts!
Aside from all the laundry and organizing I did this morning, I also went on a mission to figure out how I can save myself some money. I discovered that I can now change my phone plan to the rogers MY10 plan because I'm technically enrolled at BCIT for the next 3 and a half years. PERFECT. So now I can add 5 more people that I call which is usually what makes my bills add up, and in the end only pay about 55 bucks a month. I'm only actually paying roughly 60 bucks a month when I'm not talking too much, but sometimes I call my gramma or my brother in which case those long distance calls add up pretty fast and the bills can get as high as 100 bucks a month. So I'm pretty excited about that!
While I was at it I booked an eye exam to get my prescription renewed. While I'm at it I will reap the benefits and get a few pairs of trial contacts, find out which ones I like best, and then I'm going to go to clearlycontacts.ca and order them online for way cheaper than you get them for in the eye doctors. So again, happy because I'm finding a deal. Not to mention I'm excited to wear contacts again I'm so friggen tired of glasses.
I also ordered and airmiles card because there's a million reasons to have one so why not?!
I used some of my visa reward points to order a future shop gift card to buy myself a new memory card for my camera which is again, basically something I get for free so that was cool.
So today I am quite happy with myself haha. It sounds so pathetic but I like feeling like I've accomplished something.
I decided to look into my medical plan through work to see what my extended medical includes. I think I am going to talk to my bosses about perhaps looking into our useless eye care coverage. They do not cover safety glasses (which lets face it, our company should if we need to wear them, it's not by personal choice that some of us have crappy eye sight) and they only cover 100 bucks for contacts, frames, and/or lenses every TWO YEARS. That is FUCK all for anyone who actually wears eye glasses. My lenses alone cost 125 bucks so get the eff outta here. What pisses me off is when I went through the list of stuff they cover, get this, they cover up to 200 dollars per year for STUMP SOCKS. Yes that's right, 200 bucks a year for someone to put fuckin socks on their amputated legs. Are you for real? 200 bucks a year for THAT but only 100 bucks every two years for something more common? Whatever. I think I should bring it up. It's worth a shot at least. People don't lose their limbs THAT often in our industry, fingers yes, but legs? Not nearly as common.
My phone for some reason isn't holding a charge so if it doesn't smarten up I guess I'll have to go in and get it checked out.
I am going to hang out with my friend Leaura tomorrow night which I'm super psyched about because I haven't seen her since like, December! So we're FINALLY getting together so it's about time. Perhaps after that if it's not super late I'll post some pictures from bowling Saturday night. You'll never guess who joined us... that's right YI-HONG! :O Scandalous I tell you. I think somethings goin on there that Pat isn't telling us. So Pat, you should tell us.
I think my chocolate cake craving has finally subsided.
I was very adulty today. I did all of my laundry, and finally cleaned out my closet a bit. I have way too many things that I've been keeping (a lot of them in guilt cause they were gifts from my mom) and I finally got sick of having it all somehow end back up in the laundry and getting washed over and over again. So. I got rid of it, some went in the garbage and some went to donations. I even went through my work clothes and chucked some of the really crappy ones that I never wear. It felt really good to finally clear out some shit outta this friggen cramped up room.
I mean don't get me wrong, the bedroom is a decent size, but overall when you're sharing a place with a person you can't store things where you would like to normally. I have two closets in my bedroom, which is a good thing cause I don't know where else I'd put any of this shit. I have one closet dedicated to boxes of pictures, a tv, a little cabinet that my tv sits on that has shit shoved in it too haha. My bear rug also lives in there, and my work clothes are stored in there. As for my other closet my good clothes and shoes are in there, along with my snowboard boots, a couple purses, books and school binders etc.... and even a jewellry box that belonged to my mom when she was quite young. Come to think of it, I've needed a jewellry box for a long time to put all of my necklaces in but since I'm picky and the one that belonged to my mama is old school and pretty tacky, I don't really want to use it but maybe I'll suck it up and bust it out. I don't really like the jewellry box I just like it for the memory sake of it. I used to always play with it when I was a kid and I remember winding it up every morning when my mom was getting ready for work to listen to the music. I just don't know where I'll put it?? I need a shelf in here. A shelf would be magnificent, but again, where the hell would I put that??
We don't have a storage closet in here either, so again, no extra crap can be hidden. Which really sucks. God I can't wait to have a friggen house one day. Or even a rented place for that matter that has a little bit more space in it. This place is driving me nuts!
Aside from all the laundry and organizing I did this morning, I also went on a mission to figure out how I can save myself some money. I discovered that I can now change my phone plan to the rogers MY10 plan because I'm technically enrolled at BCIT for the next 3 and a half years. PERFECT. So now I can add 5 more people that I call which is usually what makes my bills add up, and in the end only pay about 55 bucks a month. I'm only actually paying roughly 60 bucks a month when I'm not talking too much, but sometimes I call my gramma or my brother in which case those long distance calls add up pretty fast and the bills can get as high as 100 bucks a month. So I'm pretty excited about that!
While I was at it I booked an eye exam to get my prescription renewed. While I'm at it I will reap the benefits and get a few pairs of trial contacts, find out which ones I like best, and then I'm going to go to clearlycontacts.ca and order them online for way cheaper than you get them for in the eye doctors. So again, happy because I'm finding a deal. Not to mention I'm excited to wear contacts again I'm so friggen tired of glasses.
I also ordered and airmiles card because there's a million reasons to have one so why not?!
I used some of my visa reward points to order a future shop gift card to buy myself a new memory card for my camera which is again, basically something I get for free so that was cool.
So today I am quite happy with myself haha. It sounds so pathetic but I like feeling like I've accomplished something.
I decided to look into my medical plan through work to see what my extended medical includes. I think I am going to talk to my bosses about perhaps looking into our useless eye care coverage. They do not cover safety glasses (which lets face it, our company should if we need to wear them, it's not by personal choice that some of us have crappy eye sight) and they only cover 100 bucks for contacts, frames, and/or lenses every TWO YEARS. That is FUCK all for anyone who actually wears eye glasses. My lenses alone cost 125 bucks so get the eff outta here. What pisses me off is when I went through the list of stuff they cover, get this, they cover up to 200 dollars per year for STUMP SOCKS. Yes that's right, 200 bucks a year for someone to put fuckin socks on their amputated legs. Are you for real? 200 bucks a year for THAT but only 100 bucks every two years for something more common? Whatever. I think I should bring it up. It's worth a shot at least. People don't lose their limbs THAT often in our industry, fingers yes, but legs? Not nearly as common.
My phone for some reason isn't holding a charge so if it doesn't smarten up I guess I'll have to go in and get it checked out.
I am going to hang out with my friend Leaura tomorrow night which I'm super psyched about because I haven't seen her since like, December! So we're FINALLY getting together so it's about time. Perhaps after that if it's not super late I'll post some pictures from bowling Saturday night. You'll never guess who joined us... that's right YI-HONG! :O Scandalous I tell you. I think somethings goin on there that Pat isn't telling us. So Pat, you should tell us.
I think my chocolate cake craving has finally subsided.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Random crap.
I have a list of three things to do tonight. Make Meghans friggen wedding card already. Go to the bank. And go to future shop to buy a new memory card for our hunting trip. Next up?
I don't know where this blog was going to go but I ended up walking away and returning and forgetting completely what I felt like writing about.
I'm tired. I think I'm going to go to bed super early tonight. Like 7:30 early haha. And I have failed miserably at doing any of my 'errands' tonight. Whatevs, I'll do it all this weekend.
I passed my welding test. Yay. I just hope they're not going to have me do an all position test because uh, I sure as hell won't pass that hahaha. They might as well keep their money in their pockets, they're not cheap tests to do (like 2 thousand bucks or so) annnd why bother spending all that money if it's on a for sure failure haha. Whatevs.
I just ate 120 grams of freaking lunch meat. With some crackers and cheese of course. Dinner for one? I think so.
This is just random crap that is taking up my time until I go to bed. 2 more hours YAY. haha. So pathetic but I can't wait.
Time to shower.
I don't know where this blog was going to go but I ended up walking away and returning and forgetting completely what I felt like writing about.
I'm tired. I think I'm going to go to bed super early tonight. Like 7:30 early haha. And I have failed miserably at doing any of my 'errands' tonight. Whatevs, I'll do it all this weekend.
I passed my welding test. Yay. I just hope they're not going to have me do an all position test because uh, I sure as hell won't pass that hahaha. They might as well keep their money in their pockets, they're not cheap tests to do (like 2 thousand bucks or so) annnd why bother spending all that money if it's on a for sure failure haha. Whatevs.
I just ate 120 grams of freaking lunch meat. With some crackers and cheese of course. Dinner for one? I think so.
This is just random crap that is taking up my time until I go to bed. 2 more hours YAY. haha. So pathetic but I can't wait.
Time to shower.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Pictures of Pedro haha
Okay I had to put pictures up he's just so cute haha. This is his little home!
And here he's just showing himself off. :P
There you go. Pictures haha. For you Danielle!
And here he's just showing himself off. :P
There you go. Pictures haha. For you Danielle!
I'm standing at gate 22
My computer screen is slowly becoming post-it-note free. It's about time haha. Now I only have information up there that I need to know, instead of 'plans with so-and-so on such and such day' etc. haha, It's looking quite lovely.
Oddly I am feeling really contradicted right now, because I want to share the stories of the last few days since it's been quite some time since I've blogged, but at the same time I don't really feel like blogging. It's odd, but I'm going with blogging just because I feel the page needs an update. And I am excited to share one thing haha.
So let's see what's been happening lately. On Wednesday I had an ultrasound appointment, and it went well. They didn't find any fibroids or cysts so now I will go back to the doctors and discuss the possibilities of endometriosis and begin on a journey of searching for some more answers. I was a little upset after the ultrasound because part of you just wants to find something so you can finally stop wondering what the hell is going on, but the logical side of me kicked in and said 'hey idiot it's a good thing.' So now I'm quite relaxed about the whole ordeal and I feel like a lot of stress is going away.
This weekend was basically birthday extravaganza! It was Melissa's birthday last week so we celebrated on Friday at Toby's on Commercial. It was a really great night and I'm so glad I went out. I didn't go to work thursday because I didn't feel well so I was worried that I'd still feel really crappy Friday, but I felt good when I woke up and surprisingly felt well all day so I was happy and went and bought a new birthday outfit and went out for some fun.
Alicia and I decided to have a date and go for dinner before we went to Toby's. I had so much fun at dinner! We were so busy talking about everything under the sun that neither of us took pictures. Which is a shame because I managed to spill a bit of my drink all over the place by talking too much with my hands haha, and as Alicia says... "That just happened." hahaha. It was really good though to get out with someone who I ended up having a ton in common with. So after a really yummy greek dinner and some crazy homeless woman asking us for smokes and our leftovers, we decided it was time to jet over to Melissa's birthday bash.
We joined everyone there and at first I was a little quiet because I didn't know anyone there aside from Alicia and Melissa. So it took me a bit to get into the swing of things but a drink or two later and I was out and about mingling.
We were going to have a competition to see which girl could get a lesbiens number first, since there was a whole friggen table full of them, like 15 easily haha, but they left much too early for any of us to be drunk enough to do so. Either way it was entertainment for awhile haha. We all picked out which girl we wanted hahahaha.
All of the pictures are on facebook and I'm lazy right now so I won't put any up today but perhaps another time haha.
I decided it was time to go, and I think that was around 12:30 or maybe even closer to one so luckily I had decided to leave when I did because I didn't even notice the time or think about when the skytrain stops running. And I have no idea what time it stops running at so I was a wee bit worried that I'd miss it once I realized it was almost 1. Apparently after a couple glasses of wine and a couple shots and a couple martinis, I manage to forget which direction I came from... because when I left I turned right and was walking in the opposite direction. Then all of a sudden my brain kicked in and was like 'hey douchebag you're walking the wrong way' haha and I turned around and made my way back to the skytrain. Luckily I'd only walked like a block up when I noticed nothing was familiar hahaha. Once I got on the skytrain and had time to think, I realized how sketchy that all was and how creepy commercial drive is at night, so luckily I made it home safe haha.
So that leads us to Saturday. I woke up feeling quite good actually, but I was lazy and wanted to lay in bed and watch movies. Since Dario was working I took advantage of this opportunity and watched movies till about noon. Finally I went to go shower but Krystal had beat me to it so I waited for her to be finished and had a shower and Dario came over. We decided to just have a lazy day which was so nice, so we rented Baby mama and Strange wilderness and munched on some popcorn! Baby mama I liked, but strange wilderness was meh, I didn't end up watching the whole thing. We called it a night relatively early since he was going hiking with Pat and Dean the next day.
Sunday night I stopped by Dario's for a bit of a visit, which was more like him watching football haha, and I was starving so I decided to leave and do my grocery shopping while I was at it. I was walking through the produce section when all of a sudden I saw this native guy waving at me. And then all of a sudden he says "Hiiii, do you remember me??" ... so I'm looking at him trying to figure out who this person may be, but the attempt failed and I admitted defeat and said 'No I'm sorry I don't remember you, what's your name?' ... thinking maybe a name will jog my memory. But no, his name was Sky and the only person I know named that is white with blonde hair haha so DEFINITELY not the Sky I know. I made my way over to the grapefruits and was loading a few into a bag when he came back over to me. I looked up and he says "So I'll see you next time then??" ... and I'm like 'uhm yeah okay maybe?" AND THEN HE RUBBED MY HAND.
I was like, WHAT THE SHIT?! DID THAT JUST HAPPEN?! haha I was SO creeped out. I immediately grabbed what I needed and got the fuck out of there and went home and washed my hands the second I got in the door! haha it was sooooo creepy. He talked really oddly though so I think he may have been handicapped or something but either way, it was FREAKYYYY.
After all that I went to bed and woke up and got ready for work. It was my birthday yesterday but I had kept it quiet since I like easy going birthday's and I'm not big on making a big deal out of my birthday haha. It's just not my thing. I went to work and Simon wished me a happy birthday since he's been creepin on my facebook, but he said it away from everyone else so no one else knew yet. Thank God. So I went on my merry way and then my boss Les showed up and yelled happy birthday across the yard to me. Again, no one heard and I was happy. I thanked him and continued on. Then coffee time came and Les of course asked everyone if they'd wished me a happy birthday hahahaha. I was shaking my head at him going 'no no they did not because I didn't tell anyone it was my birthday!' In the end it wasn't so bad. Les was very sweet and bought me a little piece of cake off of the gut wagon for lunch so I thought that was pretty nice.
All throughout the day I had a bunch of text messages and phonecalls, and finally came home to about 60 e-mails/facebook messages by the end of the night. I started replying to everyone individually but it just got hard because there were so many, so if I didn't reply to anyone I promise it's not because I'm not greatful, it's simply because there's such an over abundance of it that I felt redundant just saying the typical 'thanks' to everyone. ... Anywho Dario was making me dinner and so I told him what we needed from the store, but I ended up going and getting it because he was out buying me a birthday present (I didn't know this at the time I just thought he was just getting off work and was still driving home.) So I ran to the store and picked up a couple things and when I got home he was already here waiting for me. He had a present for me and I was kind of surprised since all I wanted was for him to make me dinner, but it was very cute anyways. We came inside and he asked if I wanted to have dinner first or open my present first, I said it didn't matter so he opted to open the gift. I opted to go pee first haha. I had to ask when he bought the gift because I know him and had a slight feeling he had probably just bought it maybe the day before or even a few hours before he showed up. It turned out that I was right and he had just bought it a few hours before but you'll understand why soon. So I laughed and sat down and opened my gift. HE BOUGHT ME A FISH!! :D I was SO excited! haha He has his own little tank and everything, and then he bought me a couple things to put inside his tank and the food and what not. It was the cutest thing ever because I've been trying to convince him that I need a fish, but he didn't agree haha. Maybe it was his way of figuring out what he could get me for my birthday who knows!
He's a very pretty little betta fish, I have decided to name him Pedro haha. It suits him, Dario suggested it and I like it. He's kind of reddy orange with a light pink tint on his tummy, but then his top fins are a really light blue. It's really neat looking. I'll take a picture of him soon and post it!
After that Dario made me chicken caesar salad for dinner and we had some icecream after that. :) It was a perfect way to spend a birthday. I hardly got dressed, in fact I was wearing a sports bra/work out shirt haha. The only reason I had jeans on was because I had to go to the store. But the face stayed make up free and the hair stayed wet because I really just wanted to relax. I decided that it was my favourite/best birthday yet. The fact that he bought me the fish I've been wanting for the last couple of weeks was so cute I just love it! And obvs he has to be forgiven for buying it last minute cause you can't exactly buy a fish a week in advance! haha.
Anyways, this is so friggen long, and apparently once I start blogging it puts me in the mood to write. But now I'm starving and I'm thinkin about pasta. Time to start cookin!
Oddly I am feeling really contradicted right now, because I want to share the stories of the last few days since it's been quite some time since I've blogged, but at the same time I don't really feel like blogging. It's odd, but I'm going with blogging just because I feel the page needs an update. And I am excited to share one thing haha.
So let's see what's been happening lately. On Wednesday I had an ultrasound appointment, and it went well. They didn't find any fibroids or cysts so now I will go back to the doctors and discuss the possibilities of endometriosis and begin on a journey of searching for some more answers. I was a little upset after the ultrasound because part of you just wants to find something so you can finally stop wondering what the hell is going on, but the logical side of me kicked in and said 'hey idiot it's a good thing.' So now I'm quite relaxed about the whole ordeal and I feel like a lot of stress is going away.
This weekend was basically birthday extravaganza! It was Melissa's birthday last week so we celebrated on Friday at Toby's on Commercial. It was a really great night and I'm so glad I went out. I didn't go to work thursday because I didn't feel well so I was worried that I'd still feel really crappy Friday, but I felt good when I woke up and surprisingly felt well all day so I was happy and went and bought a new birthday outfit and went out for some fun.
Alicia and I decided to have a date and go for dinner before we went to Toby's. I had so much fun at dinner! We were so busy talking about everything under the sun that neither of us took pictures. Which is a shame because I managed to spill a bit of my drink all over the place by talking too much with my hands haha, and as Alicia says... "That just happened." hahaha. It was really good though to get out with someone who I ended up having a ton in common with. So after a really yummy greek dinner and some crazy homeless woman asking us for smokes and our leftovers, we decided it was time to jet over to Melissa's birthday bash.
We joined everyone there and at first I was a little quiet because I didn't know anyone there aside from Alicia and Melissa. So it took me a bit to get into the swing of things but a drink or two later and I was out and about mingling.
We were going to have a competition to see which girl could get a lesbiens number first, since there was a whole friggen table full of them, like 15 easily haha, but they left much too early for any of us to be drunk enough to do so. Either way it was entertainment for awhile haha. We all picked out which girl we wanted hahahaha.
All of the pictures are on facebook and I'm lazy right now so I won't put any up today but perhaps another time haha.
I decided it was time to go, and I think that was around 12:30 or maybe even closer to one so luckily I had decided to leave when I did because I didn't even notice the time or think about when the skytrain stops running. And I have no idea what time it stops running at so I was a wee bit worried that I'd miss it once I realized it was almost 1. Apparently after a couple glasses of wine and a couple shots and a couple martinis, I manage to forget which direction I came from... because when I left I turned right and was walking in the opposite direction. Then all of a sudden my brain kicked in and was like 'hey douchebag you're walking the wrong way' haha and I turned around and made my way back to the skytrain. Luckily I'd only walked like a block up when I noticed nothing was familiar hahaha. Once I got on the skytrain and had time to think, I realized how sketchy that all was and how creepy commercial drive is at night, so luckily I made it home safe haha.
So that leads us to Saturday. I woke up feeling quite good actually, but I was lazy and wanted to lay in bed and watch movies. Since Dario was working I took advantage of this opportunity and watched movies till about noon. Finally I went to go shower but Krystal had beat me to it so I waited for her to be finished and had a shower and Dario came over. We decided to just have a lazy day which was so nice, so we rented Baby mama and Strange wilderness and munched on some popcorn! Baby mama I liked, but strange wilderness was meh, I didn't end up watching the whole thing. We called it a night relatively early since he was going hiking with Pat and Dean the next day.
Sunday night I stopped by Dario's for a bit of a visit, which was more like him watching football haha, and I was starving so I decided to leave and do my grocery shopping while I was at it. I was walking through the produce section when all of a sudden I saw this native guy waving at me. And then all of a sudden he says "Hiiii, do you remember me??" ... so I'm looking at him trying to figure out who this person may be, but the attempt failed and I admitted defeat and said 'No I'm sorry I don't remember you, what's your name?' ... thinking maybe a name will jog my memory. But no, his name was Sky and the only person I know named that is white with blonde hair haha so DEFINITELY not the Sky I know. I made my way over to the grapefruits and was loading a few into a bag when he came back over to me. I looked up and he says "So I'll see you next time then??" ... and I'm like 'uhm yeah okay maybe?" AND THEN HE RUBBED MY HAND.
I was like, WHAT THE SHIT?! DID THAT JUST HAPPEN?! haha I was SO creeped out. I immediately grabbed what I needed and got the fuck out of there and went home and washed my hands the second I got in the door! haha it was sooooo creepy. He talked really oddly though so I think he may have been handicapped or something but either way, it was FREAKYYYY.
After all that I went to bed and woke up and got ready for work. It was my birthday yesterday but I had kept it quiet since I like easy going birthday's and I'm not big on making a big deal out of my birthday haha. It's just not my thing. I went to work and Simon wished me a happy birthday since he's been creepin on my facebook, but he said it away from everyone else so no one else knew yet. Thank God. So I went on my merry way and then my boss Les showed up and yelled happy birthday across the yard to me. Again, no one heard and I was happy. I thanked him and continued on. Then coffee time came and Les of course asked everyone if they'd wished me a happy birthday hahahaha. I was shaking my head at him going 'no no they did not because I didn't tell anyone it was my birthday!' In the end it wasn't so bad. Les was very sweet and bought me a little piece of cake off of the gut wagon for lunch so I thought that was pretty nice.
All throughout the day I had a bunch of text messages and phonecalls, and finally came home to about 60 e-mails/facebook messages by the end of the night. I started replying to everyone individually but it just got hard because there were so many, so if I didn't reply to anyone I promise it's not because I'm not greatful, it's simply because there's such an over abundance of it that I felt redundant just saying the typical 'thanks' to everyone. ... Anywho Dario was making me dinner and so I told him what we needed from the store, but I ended up going and getting it because he was out buying me a birthday present (I didn't know this at the time I just thought he was just getting off work and was still driving home.) So I ran to the store and picked up a couple things and when I got home he was already here waiting for me. He had a present for me and I was kind of surprised since all I wanted was for him to make me dinner, but it was very cute anyways. We came inside and he asked if I wanted to have dinner first or open my present first, I said it didn't matter so he opted to open the gift. I opted to go pee first haha. I had to ask when he bought the gift because I know him and had a slight feeling he had probably just bought it maybe the day before or even a few hours before he showed up. It turned out that I was right and he had just bought it a few hours before but you'll understand why soon. So I laughed and sat down and opened my gift. HE BOUGHT ME A FISH!! :D I was SO excited! haha He has his own little tank and everything, and then he bought me a couple things to put inside his tank and the food and what not. It was the cutest thing ever because I've been trying to convince him that I need a fish, but he didn't agree haha. Maybe it was his way of figuring out what he could get me for my birthday who knows!
He's a very pretty little betta fish, I have decided to name him Pedro haha. It suits him, Dario suggested it and I like it. He's kind of reddy orange with a light pink tint on his tummy, but then his top fins are a really light blue. It's really neat looking. I'll take a picture of him soon and post it!
After that Dario made me chicken caesar salad for dinner and we had some icecream after that. :) It was a perfect way to spend a birthday. I hardly got dressed, in fact I was wearing a sports bra/work out shirt haha. The only reason I had jeans on was because I had to go to the store. But the face stayed make up free and the hair stayed wet because I really just wanted to relax. I decided that it was my favourite/best birthday yet. The fact that he bought me the fish I've been wanting for the last couple of weeks was so cute I just love it! And obvs he has to be forgiven for buying it last minute cause you can't exactly buy a fish a week in advance! haha.
Anyways, this is so friggen long, and apparently once I start blogging it puts me in the mood to write. But now I'm starving and I'm thinkin about pasta. Time to start cookin!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
The Chief
In no particular order:
Dario and I went to Squamish today to hike the Chief. :) Totally worth it and so overdue. It felt great to actually hike up a mountain, we haven't since last summer. I failed miserably last time and complained so much cause I was way fatter back then. Dario still had to go a little slower so I could keep up with him... I get very out of breath very fast, but we made it :)
It was an awesome morning and a perfect day for it all :)
It was an awesome morning and a perfect day for it all :)
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Losing it slowly but surely
Ugh this is getting ridiculous. I woke up this morning with really bad pains in my lower abdomen again. I had them really bad last night but sucked it up to visit with everyone at the pub. So I have decided to stop looking for a female doctor in particular but instead just any doctor that is taking clients.
I have chosen a male doctor. He is in North Van and I go to meet him tomorrow after work. His schedule is perfect because he only works afternoons and evenings, which will cause me to miss less time from work as opposed to the other appointments I've been having. I already miss enough work due to all of the problems itself that I don't need to miss more on top of that to go see the doctor.
His name is Dr. Vala. Dario's cousin Rachel gave me the number to the clinic to try for her doctor, but she isn't accepting new patients, but I decided to try someone else in the clinic. Since the clinic is strictly for obstetrics and gynecology I figure anyone there should be better than the others I have been seeing in the past. So tomorrow evening after work I will meet with my new doctor to see if we like eachother, and hopefully all will go well. Then after that I can make an appointment to start finding what the hell is wrong with my insides.
My brain is pretty much driving me crazy because I'm starting to fear the worst. There are two very likely possibilities that the doctor had given me (not the one that was actually a gyno just a regular day to day family practitioner,) fibroids or endometriosis. I'm hoping for neither obvs. I was prescribed a new birth control (the fourth kind I'll have tried now) in hopes that it will help with the symptoms I get, but if it's fibroids then the pill will only worsen the symptoms, and if it's endometriosis it won't stop the pain or anything else for that matter. I'm holding my hopes high that this pill might work, but at the same time I'm running out of faith on prescriptions since the last 3 pills haven't worked, as well as I've had another type of medication that was suppose to lessen the bleeding but that didn't work either, and I've tried a multi-vitamin with iron to help replenish those levels that I lose every month. However nothing is seeming successful and I am exhausted with trying at this point. Everything is getting worse over the years, and nothing has even been concluded yet. At least if there was a concrete diagnosis then treatment can be started, but until I find out what's actually wrong I have to live with it.
I'm sure my bosses are just as tired of me missing work as I am, and I still worry that eventually it will become an issue for them. They're very sympathetic and understand that something is going on, especially since both of them have been married before. My one bosses girlfriend has had cancerous cells found 6 times now, and my other bosses ex wife had fibroids so he understands the sort of problems that come along with it all. Regardless of how sympathetic they may be, they still have a business to run and if my missing work all the times ends up causing problems for the business then obviously something will end up having to be done about the situation.
Everything is just getting extremely stressful and tiring. I'm wearing very thin emotionally. The fact that I am generally a pretty strong person makes it even more stressful because it is simply something that is out of my hands. I have no control over the situation and it's hard to accept. If it was just a mental stress like 'my boyfriend and I are fighting' or 'my boyfriend dumped me'... that sort of stress, then you have control and can choose to get through it and be okay. But the fact that this has control over me both mentally and physically I am simply breaking down.
I have the biggest fear right now that I am going to be unable to have children. Dario mentioned getting married and having kids recently and I burst into tears because to be honest, I'm trying not to think about my hopes of one day having a family incase the news comes that I can't. The only thing I have ever wanted, and have always wanted, is children. So the thoughts in the back of my head aren't going away, they always pop up, and I'm just ready to lose it.
At least the busy schedule helps keep my mind off of things for the time being, but at the same time I'm starting to feel like I just need a time and a place to lose my composure completely. I want to lose that composure just to get it off my chest for now so that I can be empty and ready to tackle this again for the next few days, weeks, months, and years. I am much too tired to deal with this for much longer, I need to get back to zero.
I have chosen a male doctor. He is in North Van and I go to meet him tomorrow after work. His schedule is perfect because he only works afternoons and evenings, which will cause me to miss less time from work as opposed to the other appointments I've been having. I already miss enough work due to all of the problems itself that I don't need to miss more on top of that to go see the doctor.
His name is Dr. Vala. Dario's cousin Rachel gave me the number to the clinic to try for her doctor, but she isn't accepting new patients, but I decided to try someone else in the clinic. Since the clinic is strictly for obstetrics and gynecology I figure anyone there should be better than the others I have been seeing in the past. So tomorrow evening after work I will meet with my new doctor to see if we like eachother, and hopefully all will go well. Then after that I can make an appointment to start finding what the hell is wrong with my insides.
My brain is pretty much driving me crazy because I'm starting to fear the worst. There are two very likely possibilities that the doctor had given me (not the one that was actually a gyno just a regular day to day family practitioner,) fibroids or endometriosis. I'm hoping for neither obvs. I was prescribed a new birth control (the fourth kind I'll have tried now) in hopes that it will help with the symptoms I get, but if it's fibroids then the pill will only worsen the symptoms, and if it's endometriosis it won't stop the pain or anything else for that matter. I'm holding my hopes high that this pill might work, but at the same time I'm running out of faith on prescriptions since the last 3 pills haven't worked, as well as I've had another type of medication that was suppose to lessen the bleeding but that didn't work either, and I've tried a multi-vitamin with iron to help replenish those levels that I lose every month. However nothing is seeming successful and I am exhausted with trying at this point. Everything is getting worse over the years, and nothing has even been concluded yet. At least if there was a concrete diagnosis then treatment can be started, but until I find out what's actually wrong I have to live with it.
I'm sure my bosses are just as tired of me missing work as I am, and I still worry that eventually it will become an issue for them. They're very sympathetic and understand that something is going on, especially since both of them have been married before. My one bosses girlfriend has had cancerous cells found 6 times now, and my other bosses ex wife had fibroids so he understands the sort of problems that come along with it all. Regardless of how sympathetic they may be, they still have a business to run and if my missing work all the times ends up causing problems for the business then obviously something will end up having to be done about the situation.
Everything is just getting extremely stressful and tiring. I'm wearing very thin emotionally. The fact that I am generally a pretty strong person makes it even more stressful because it is simply something that is out of my hands. I have no control over the situation and it's hard to accept. If it was just a mental stress like 'my boyfriend and I are fighting' or 'my boyfriend dumped me'... that sort of stress, then you have control and can choose to get through it and be okay. But the fact that this has control over me both mentally and physically I am simply breaking down.
I have the biggest fear right now that I am going to be unable to have children. Dario mentioned getting married and having kids recently and I burst into tears because to be honest, I'm trying not to think about my hopes of one day having a family incase the news comes that I can't. The only thing I have ever wanted, and have always wanted, is children. So the thoughts in the back of my head aren't going away, they always pop up, and I'm just ready to lose it.
At least the busy schedule helps keep my mind off of things for the time being, but at the same time I'm starting to feel like I just need a time and a place to lose my composure completely. I want to lose that composure just to get it off my chest for now so that I can be empty and ready to tackle this again for the next few days, weeks, months, and years. I am much too tired to deal with this for much longer, I need to get back to zero.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
no time no time
Sorry for delayed pictures and a post on Danielle and Chad's wedding. I finally was able to put the pictures on facebook so you can view them there. I'll post a proper blog on it all when I get a chance but it may not be until the weekend, wednesday, thursday, something for friday I do believe if I'm not mistaken, I'm forgetting already :S and saturday I'm busy for so HOPEFULLY I'll get a chance on Sunday.
I have to make my mother a birthday card tonight and mail it tomorrow and hope that it makes it there by Friday. It should... but I'm hoping nothing gets screwed up because in all my business even though I have a post it note on my computer desk I still forgot until today and went 'oh shit moms birthday is on Sunday' fuuuuuuck. My computer is a mad house right now. I have 11 post it notes around my screen right now. I need a fricken calander or organizer again. I might just take a trip to BCIT and yoink one from them.
I just threw together a stew for tomorrow in the crock pot so I can start it before I go to work so dinner will be ready when I get home. Perfect cause I'll be starving and won't have time to cook since we're working 10 hour days this week. I also made a greek salad and a piece of chicken for my lunch tomorrow, and packed some yogurt. I need carbs of some sort but I will have to figure that out in the morning. This way I'll have time to sleep a little longer and wake up just in time to get some clothes on, brush my teeth, make a bagel and head to work.
For some reason lately the word 'endometriosis' has been creeping up all over the place. I swear I'd never heard it being talked about ever, nor 'fibroids' and for some stupid reason I seem to be seeing those words everywhere now. Currently there is a show I can hear in the background on TLC about some woman who always had severe problems/symptoms strikingly similar to the ones I get with her period, and when she was 34 she was rushed to hospital and they suspected she had cancer. She had a huge mass on her ovary which they put her through immediate surgery to remove to test to see if it was cancerous and when they went in there they found that her whole abdominal region had severe endometriosis and they had to make a decision to remove her entire reproductive organs in order to get everything out since it was also spreading to her bowells and everything. Seriously it's freaking me out to even think about I've been so stressed and panicked lately that I might have something like that and now that the words of it all just seem to be popping up all over the place I'm pretty much shitting my pants.
In other notes apparently one of the guys at work (the new guy) is missing? Some guy came to the shop this morning looking for him because no one knew where he was, but my boss had got a phonecall from him but the answering machine cut him off so he still doesn't know why he isn't at work... the message just went 'hey it's ____ krrrr(static noises then cut off) ... creeeeeeeepy. Perhaps he'll show up tomorrow? haha who knows.
On the other hand I'm going to go quickly throw this card together so fast it's not even funny and have a shower and get some frickin sleep.
I have to make my mother a birthday card tonight and mail it tomorrow and hope that it makes it there by Friday. It should... but I'm hoping nothing gets screwed up because in all my business even though I have a post it note on my computer desk I still forgot until today and went 'oh shit moms birthday is on Sunday' fuuuuuuck. My computer is a mad house right now. I have 11 post it notes around my screen right now. I need a fricken calander or organizer again. I might just take a trip to BCIT and yoink one from them.
I just threw together a stew for tomorrow in the crock pot so I can start it before I go to work so dinner will be ready when I get home. Perfect cause I'll be starving and won't have time to cook since we're working 10 hour days this week. I also made a greek salad and a piece of chicken for my lunch tomorrow, and packed some yogurt. I need carbs of some sort but I will have to figure that out in the morning. This way I'll have time to sleep a little longer and wake up just in time to get some clothes on, brush my teeth, make a bagel and head to work.
For some reason lately the word 'endometriosis' has been creeping up all over the place. I swear I'd never heard it being talked about ever, nor 'fibroids' and for some stupid reason I seem to be seeing those words everywhere now. Currently there is a show I can hear in the background on TLC about some woman who always had severe problems/symptoms strikingly similar to the ones I get with her period, and when she was 34 she was rushed to hospital and they suspected she had cancer. She had a huge mass on her ovary which they put her through immediate surgery to remove to test to see if it was cancerous and when they went in there they found that her whole abdominal region had severe endometriosis and they had to make a decision to remove her entire reproductive organs in order to get everything out since it was also spreading to her bowells and everything. Seriously it's freaking me out to even think about I've been so stressed and panicked lately that I might have something like that and now that the words of it all just seem to be popping up all over the place I'm pretty much shitting my pants.
In other notes apparently one of the guys at work (the new guy) is missing? Some guy came to the shop this morning looking for him because no one knew where he was, but my boss had got a phonecall from him but the answering machine cut him off so he still doesn't know why he isn't at work... the message just went 'hey it's ____ krrrr(static noises then cut off) ... creeeeeeeepy. Perhaps he'll show up tomorrow? haha who knows.
On the other hand I'm going to go quickly throw this card together so fast it's not even funny and have a shower and get some frickin sleep.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Victor Hugo
I found this quote today. I've never been much on 'quotes' but I really liked this one.
"The greatest happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved,
loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves."
"The greatest happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved,
loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves."
Uhm, could you warm that up next time?
Well I don't really know what to blog about. I am home from work again today due to another doctors appointment. Which pissed me off to no end because I could have walked in and been done with it faster than actually having the appointment booked. I waited an hour and a half before I finally saw a doctor, which took maybe 5 minutes and I was back out of there. Not to mention the fact that the doctor isn't my favourite doctor and I don't like her and want to find a different one. She's just way too inconsiderate. Sigh, whatever it's over for another 2 weeks. Boourns.
I asked Krystal if she could yoink me an SFU daily planner. My BCIT one is out of days and I don't feel like spending the money on a new one from staples or something since it's already september and there's only a couple months of this year left. I might as well save that for January and get a nice one. I've realized I can't really go without a planner now there's just way too much shit going on.
I started reading a book last night called 'just checking.' It's about a crazy lady who has OCD and it's absolutely insane what this woman does. She goes for HIV tests pretty much weekly, the second someone spits in her eye when they're talking to her, or if she accidently drinks out of someone elses glass she goes and gets tested for AIDs. It's pretty crazy. I always thought I was a little OCD but definitely not when I started reading this haha. Although a few things freaked me out at first because they're little things that I do, but this girl is definitely certifiably insane. When someone talks to her she draws stars in her head, one line for each word the person says to her. And she won't answer them until she has a full star drawn. So if someone only says 4 words, she waits until they say enough words to make completed stars, so she needs 1 word or 6 words spoken to her before she'll answer them. Crazy I tell you. Although it's purked my interest for the time being and it feels good to spend some time reading since I never usually do. I enjoy it when I find a good book, and won't put it down until I'm done (I'll read every spare second of every day I have when I find a good book) but I just haven't been interested in reading since highschool basically. My roomie keeps hassling me to read so she gave me this book to start. So far so good.
I weighed myself at the doctors while I was waiting for her to come into the room. Her scale tells me I weigh 133 pounds. I think I like her scale. Mine tells me I weigh 137/139ish. I blame it on an unlevel floor because I weigh different amounts on different tiles I noticed. I also blame it on the fact that my scale is a cheapo scale from IKEA. I think I'll just lie and use the doctors number, it has to be right, I mean it's a doctors scale those things can't lie! haha. Yeah right :P
Work has died down this week for the time being until we get our shipment of steel in. I am thankful for that because I've been sick and Danielle's wedding is coming up so it's nice to relax a little bit.
I had a major issue last night about the fact that I had to shave my legs today and now I don't know how great they'll look on Saturday because if I shave them again Saturday morning I'll probably get razor burn. I just don't know what to do haha. It seems so stupid and pathetic but I think it's something every girl worries about. Timing for leg shaving is key! I want to get that laser thing done on my legs, that would make me so happy. Too bad it's so expensive.
I hope my sniffles are gone by Saturday so I'm not sniffling throughout the church all day. That would be really annoying. It can stop anytime now, I'd be much appreciative haha.
I guess I should go and make a few cards, I've got a couple birthdays and what not coming up and obvs a wedding so I guess I'll spend this afternoon doing that. :)
I asked Krystal if she could yoink me an SFU daily planner. My BCIT one is out of days and I don't feel like spending the money on a new one from staples or something since it's already september and there's only a couple months of this year left. I might as well save that for January and get a nice one. I've realized I can't really go without a planner now there's just way too much shit going on.
I started reading a book last night called 'just checking.' It's about a crazy lady who has OCD and it's absolutely insane what this woman does. She goes for HIV tests pretty much weekly, the second someone spits in her eye when they're talking to her, or if she accidently drinks out of someone elses glass she goes and gets tested for AIDs. It's pretty crazy. I always thought I was a little OCD but definitely not when I started reading this haha. Although a few things freaked me out at first because they're little things that I do, but this girl is definitely certifiably insane. When someone talks to her she draws stars in her head, one line for each word the person says to her. And she won't answer them until she has a full star drawn. So if someone only says 4 words, she waits until they say enough words to make completed stars, so she needs 1 word or 6 words spoken to her before she'll answer them. Crazy I tell you. Although it's purked my interest for the time being and it feels good to spend some time reading since I never usually do. I enjoy it when I find a good book, and won't put it down until I'm done (I'll read every spare second of every day I have when I find a good book) but I just haven't been interested in reading since highschool basically. My roomie keeps hassling me to read so she gave me this book to start. So far so good.
I weighed myself at the doctors while I was waiting for her to come into the room. Her scale tells me I weigh 133 pounds. I think I like her scale. Mine tells me I weigh 137/139ish. I blame it on an unlevel floor because I weigh different amounts on different tiles I noticed. I also blame it on the fact that my scale is a cheapo scale from IKEA. I think I'll just lie and use the doctors number, it has to be right, I mean it's a doctors scale those things can't lie! haha. Yeah right :P
Work has died down this week for the time being until we get our shipment of steel in. I am thankful for that because I've been sick and Danielle's wedding is coming up so it's nice to relax a little bit.
I had a major issue last night about the fact that I had to shave my legs today and now I don't know how great they'll look on Saturday because if I shave them again Saturday morning I'll probably get razor burn. I just don't know what to do haha. It seems so stupid and pathetic but I think it's something every girl worries about. Timing for leg shaving is key! I want to get that laser thing done on my legs, that would make me so happy. Too bad it's so expensive.
I hope my sniffles are gone by Saturday so I'm not sniffling throughout the church all day. That would be really annoying. It can stop anytime now, I'd be much appreciative haha.
I guess I should go and make a few cards, I've got a couple birthdays and what not coming up and obvs a wedding so I guess I'll spend this afternoon doing that. :)
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